Xiao Zhou

2012-01-31T20:39:00.001+08:00

I am lost.I dunno whr can i move on.My job,i am lik standing at the middle of the crossroad,i dunno whr to go.My boss promised me he will convert my colleague to perm staff,and he really did convert my colleague before feb.Bt,according to my colleague react,she doesn't seems to be happy for tis news.Count as i selfish,i juz wanna keep her same lvl as me,reason being,i dun wan her to feel unfair,bt oso i dun wan becos of the lvl,i need to put in more responsible.Means,i hope we both share the same responsible.Then,changes is coming again.Challenges is coming towards me again.My boss chatted wif me today again.He told me,i can be somebody someday,provided i am willing to put in the efforts.I hesitate.I asked him,did he overestimated me?He ans:"no".And he asked me,do u wan to be tat somebody.Well...i feel lik asking,can i?I really can do it?Frm wat he told me,can feel tat he believes me,he look gd on me,he hav the confident on me.Bt,hw come i dun gain the confident?I can do it?Can i?Even my boss,boss is leaving.Isit a gd thing or a bad thing?Somebody gg to chap my WH again,omy...pls............let us be the one to solve it,to control it and to maintain it.

2011-12-20T21:25:00.003+08:00

As I grow older,things surrounded me let me feels that life's so fuzzy.It's nt perfect lik hw I thought it was when I was young.Life can nv rewind,so forget abt the thought of "I hope I can go back to young times",I can only move forward.At times,I am thinking..shld I change myself to overcome this fuzzy life?Maybe if I dun be so conserved,more open-minded,then I won't suffer alone.If I can dun be so infatuation,maybe I already fall in and fall out of love umpteen times.

2011-11-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

I have been saying,have been tinking,tat i wanna leave tis co.,leave tis job,blah blah blah.And so..juz a few mins back,i am at one of the website looking for job vacancy,bt...something's shocked me,i suddenly have a feeling of reluctant to.I can't imagine leaving tis co.,hw would it be.Will i found a better job or a job tat is worst than wat i am doing nw,is leaving tis co. and look for other job really wat i want?I doubt so.I dunno.I feel so complicated rite nw.My feelings have been running around tis few wks.It's lik,a feeling tat i cannot explain.Bt the onli word i can define tis feeling is,pain.Cos it's a feeling which makes me wanna cry.Pls save me.It's either u kill me or u save me,dun tortured me.I hav been leading a hard life which i can't imagine wat i would do next.Tell me tell me tell me tell me tell me tell me tell me tell me,i wan an ans.

2011-11-14T11:26:00.001+08:00

On the 12 nov,thr's co. chalet organised by my department(warehouse),me and my boss organised everything.At first,everything was fine.Although it rains bt in the end,rain stopped.And,ppls who are invited came.Then,the crowd was thr,out of sudden,i juz feel lik being alone,so went to the beach for a walk,sit thr,trying to relax myself,bt dunno why..my heart feel ache,i go back to the chalet and hope i would get some merrier frm thr bt i feel worst,so i went back to the beach again,for quite sometime.Tink of the past,when my cousin celebrated her 21st thr,my dad drive me frm whitesand to aloha,at the swimming pool,while taking the video of my uncle and the kid my mum take care of,in the swimming pool,my dad was beside laughing so loud.Cool down abit,go back to the chalet,and finally get some entertainment frm some colleague's,then suddenly,something happened,somebody was drunk in the chalet,and then it spoiled the chalet,though most of them was back,all the big bosses has oso lefted,bt...i and a few colleagues still thr,overall,tis chalet didn't enjoy much,it looks lik it was a success one,bt..to me,it was nt,cos of those happening,and so...my plan to spend thr overnight changed,i went home wif the colleagues tat hav no intention to stay thr overnight at abt 5am plus in the morning.Wif the moody mood.Telling myself,i will nv organise co. chalet anymore,or nt,i will nt attend.Unless thr is a better reason for me to go for such "entertainment".

13 Nov
Believing it would onli bring complication to my life,bt...no matter hw much i choose nt to believe,i can't run away frm the fact that they gain nth for lying,they lose nth for lying,they hav no reason to lied to us.No matter it's true or not,i tell myself if my lov life really gonna suffer or even bring unhappiness to my family,then i would rather choose not to lov,nt to fall in lov and nt to let somebody lov,bt...i am afraid i can't do it,bt frm nw on,i muz try,i muz do it,i am nt gonna fall in lov trap again,falling in lov with somebody is onli giving that person authority to hurt you.Bt,it's my dad part that makes me keep on tinking till i keep on dropping tears.I can't accept that i hav to lose my dad,ytd that conversation let me worried that after i leave tis world,i oso can't find my dad,let me worried that thr is no more next life with my dad,mum,bro,sis and me together as one family again.Why we hav no right to choose?Why everything muz be destined for us since the day we are born?It toally sounds lik we are the chess of the god.Whr we go,hw we live,what we do,when are we gg to die,all are decided by heaven,decided by don't know which god.And tis god is really unfair,it let somebody suffer till wanna end tis life asap,it let somebody rich till wanna live till long live and nv die.It let somebody who wan a son get a daughter,it let somebody wan a daughter get a son.It let the kind person being bully,it let the evil person being protected.So it indirectly created a evil mindset in human's heart isn't it?All are human,why can't everyone be the same?I dun mean same character,same faces,same voice,same attitude,i onli mean hav the same kind of heart,same human nature.Won't do things tat's so inhuman,hav some heart,though i am human,bt i am oso scare of human,nt onli other's,bt oso myself,cos i dunno one day,what would occurs me,what would infect me,i dunno hw will i turn to be in future,bt if i am able to decide,i will nv wan myself to turn to a bad person.

2011-09-16T23:44:00.003+08:00

Today,new boss told me tat he may wan to send me to US for one business trip.Kinda shock bt I am actually quite looking forward.Bt too bad uh,it's nt lik those tv drama,gg business trip wif the handsome boss,hahaha.So actually,I am quite worried abt this,if gg wif old boss I still feel alrite,bt new boss jiu abit scary.LOL.Hm...so even if its real i oso dunno shld go or shldn't?Well...if mine is mine,run away oso no use,same thing for the opp.船到桥头自然直 -_-

2011-08-31T21:58:00.000+08:00

It's getting more and more tiring, more and more challenging.Called 3 person when I need help and the first person whom reply is u.Why?I thought even if without u,I can do well.I no need u to be here I oso can do well,bt i can't.I called for ur help and i need your console and i almost cried.Tis fcuking job,when can I get it done?Doing so well so wat?Problem is keep on coming up.It's lik u walk a long way to get a pail of water back for somebody and that somebody didn't concern hw tired u are after a long walk..yet,tat somebody blame u for bringing tat pail of water back in such a long time.My new boss,seems to be nt bad bt yet he is lik,many things oso dunno,many things oso unable to settle for me.Something handover to him,in the end is lik turning one round back to me.My new boss told me he is tired,bt does he noe tat,so am i.I am having phobia to my daily jobscope,by doing all these job tat is extra bt cannot dun do,hw long hav i neglected my basic jobscope,hav been passing it to my colleague and yea,lucky she is able to help me out and clear some of my troubles.Hai...shld i change a new job?Shld i leave tis place tat is so hard for me to handle?Everybody is busy,bt..no matter hw busy they are,they still go back on time,complete their work on time,bt...i can't,cos my work can always be plenty,seems lik i can't complete it in any day.

2011-08-06T20:08:00.001+08:00

Lik a finally can move up to the air-conditional office on top of warehouse.Bt,thr is abit feeling of hesitant,cos in this case,we will be having trouble on passing documents,and oso printer is unable to move up as thr is no lans on tat office,therefore,will have to climb up and down often as we are using printer very often.-.- I am so so so tired larHx,wth...frm mon- fri to mon-fri plus OT,nw is mon-sat plus OT,and for tis wk still burn my sunday.Shitty man!:/ All these hardwork will be recognise by who?NOBODY!Ppl in tat co. onli see result,they dun see the effort of the ppl put in between.Lik so easy,cos they are all using mouth,we are the one who's suffering -.-.Actually I am so confuse,feel lik to quit again.Bt I shldn't -.-.New system coming out soon,new challenge again,congrats me...if I didn't blackout before I defeat tis challenge.LOL.Hope..hope everything's went smooth.

2011-07-20T23:09:00.000+08:00

Seriously,tis is the first time i encountered stock count,i guess it's the worst stock count ever.Fuck man,ppl who noe hw to manage it,one left,two went US,one on course..left ppl who doesn't hav any idea of it to struggle lik hell and in the end,it was all crap.Pc of shit!Today then the one on course(tat is my previous boss) came to take a look and say tis wrong,tat wrong.Then why are we doing stock count at tis so wrong timing?__ I seriously dun understand wat are those upper management ppl in tis co. doing.Shake leg?Finding sumthing MORE for their subordinate to do?And when things get done,they are the one who gt the outstanding,and when things nt done,we are the one who gt those shit.The co. i am in nw,yea..it's a gd co.,bt..is the name of the co. gd,nt the co. i am in is gd,cos tis co. is suck ttm..everyone is playing "taiji" in tis co.,and noe wat does tat mean?"Taiji" mean pushing their job to ppl whom they can push to.And upper management is doing nth bt i seriously didn't noe lik tat oso can,why job tat belongs to u can be push to others?When u say help,is a diff story,cos help is onli maybe once or twice,bt nope,in tis co.,it is totally pushing the job to u lik yea,it suppose to be ur job,when the truth is,it shldn't be ur job.Wat do u mean tat "dun act impulsive on making wrong decision,she needs to hand sumthing over to u"?Hey,get tis clear!In the co. nw is nt becos of anybody,if really thr's a reason for me to leave,u tink i would giv a damn abt she need to hand sumthing over to me?Such a disappointed :/

2011-07-13T22:42:00.000+08:00

Ytd,I was juz tinking tat hw can you juz hand-over lik tis without saying gdbye to the WH and yet,today...you hold ur last morning meeting wif WH and tell us tat start frm today onwards,you will be totally handing-over WH to the new WH manager,and wash ur hands off WH.You will be wif us for another 1-2 wks and after tat,we won't be seeing you in WH already.Wanna concentrate on ur speech bt the idiot new WH manager talked to me and i didn't get to listen to wat you hav said,bt...no matter wat,i really feel reluctant.Tat feeling was so down.Accidentally saw ur schedule on the calendar,fri u will be on leave,mon and tues will be on course,so whr are u gg to be when u leave the WH?Ur old place?Or u handling new things?You have been telling me nt to scare of learning new things,it's an opportunity,I know,i understand,bt...when challenge comes,other than feeling afraid,i really can't be lik u and wat u hav taught me.Seriously,did i enter the wrong co.?The people here doesn't seems to hav sense of cooperative.Everyone's overthr learn to play "taiji".Pushing their job to each other's.Nt organised at all.Make me feel tat the more i work,the more tired i feel,cos i dunno which job suppose to be my responsible,and which job i can reject to do,nw it seems everything related to WH,related to system,will be directly related to me.-.- And,i heard u are one of them tat is pushing the job to me due to ur handover,is tat true?Pls no..if it's true,i will seriously feel disappointed.I noe she is,bt i hope u are nt.I...really wanna leave tis freaking co. and found the co. tat really needs me.

2011-07-05T23:09:00.003+08:00

怎样，Kris，ok ma?Hw long hav i nt hearing u asking me tis.And...u asked me today :D.Bt,i giv u a weird smiling,and u seems to noe wat i am tinking,and giv me a loooooong advise.U told me,if thr is a boss who wan to upgrade u,giv u opportunity,dun be afraid,dun scare if thr will be alots of work to do.Cos nt every company hav tis kind of chances,some company juz treat their employee as number card.Hm...and i juz nod head bt dun really understand wat u trying to tell me.I really feel grateful by having those in co. tat hav given me advise and such in tis company when i am lost,when i am down.Seriously,thks!I juz hope tat when the new WH manager is seriously taking over,i wun hav any arguement wif him and ended up i made a reckless choice.Cos seriously,i dun giv a damn abt him at all.Watever he discuss wif me,is nt "discuss",he already make the choice,he juz simply let me noe his decision.Means,i am forced into his idea.And,i hate so.Especially while he is speaking to me,thr are some hypocrite and extra's beside being irritating.I,seriously wanna to leave tis co. so so so much after noeing u are leaving and he will be taking over soon,bt..why is thr so many ppl advised me to stay?And i am still stuck in between is becos i dunno the reason why i wanna leave,neither do i noe the reason why am i still staying.I juz waste my life day by day.

2011-06-29T20:45:00.000+08:00

Wtf!!!!!!Fuck tat cb new WH manager,knn...act one big onli,wtf..wan me to work on sat and sun in a forcing way,then for wat fuck u come and ask me tat isit a prob for me to work on sat and sun,and when i ans yes,yet u reply lik no matter wat i still hav to come.CB!Seriously larHx hoh,if i gonna hav to work on sat and sun,then i muz well go find retail job sua larHx,still gt commission,maybe pay still can get higher than wat i am earning nw.Intended to find a part time job to work on fri and sat,bt fuck u..ruin all my plan.You say tat tis is a project so i need to work for sat and sun for a few wks maybe,well...i gonna see,if fucker u bluff me,if sat and sun is becoming my working days and nt juz tat few wks,then i am gonna quit!I wun consider much!My motive for finding a admin job is becos i wan tat office hr,nt i lik or wat.Idiot!Lik a pervert lik tat,ask my phone no.,still say wat at nite cannot slp can call me,you tink funny uh,kns!Shit..shld nt giv it to u,knn...bt no choice,fuck!I am gonna get crazy larHx..ass!So many prob nw,one haven solve,another one probing up,and ppl thr are juz getting more and more suck!So many ppl is leaving,so when is my turn?=( I feel really tired larHx,isit true tat all job is lik tat?But at least the ppl can be better rite?-.- If nth changes,if after the first WH manager go off and the second one came,everything juz remain tat way,hw great would it be,why..tell me why muz the WH manager change again? :/

2011-06-21T21:34:00.000+08:00

U are gg to leave our area very soon,aren't u?I can feel it today,tat the chance I get to see u is getting lesser and lesser.Starting to feel afraid and kinda panic.Nw..u are the one who's on my back for me to rely,second is "ur assistant".Nw,u are gg to leave our area..and "ur assistant" oso leaving after a few mths,after tat..I am the onli one,I am lefted all alone,teach me hw do I nt feel stress when I tink of tis?I noe relying is nt gd,bt I juz didn't realise I hav been relying on u till I have realised,it's too late..I am already used to it.So hw?-.- I feel so tired...the more I work,the more tired I get.I thought the longer I work,I get used to it,I feel nth when I go to work,it will juz become a standard daily schedule of my life,bt things does nt go as smoothly as I thought it would be,cos I am wrong..the longer I work,more new things I gt to face.I hate when everything's is keep on changing,especially when it's frm gd change to bad.I hate when I heard somebody's is gg to leave our area,especially I realise everytime,ppl who's leaving are always the one who does help on my daily work.Without them,sumthing will be missing.But none of those who don't does any help wanna leave.Lik so LOL! -.-

2011-06-11T00:40:00.001+08:00

Endure in process..hw long more can I convince myself?Brain and heart gt diff choices,shld I listen to brain or heart?Choices of brain is nt wat I wan,bt is wat I need,choices of heart is wat I wan,bt yet I can't gurantee I will be safe for choosing tis.Awww..ytd kana screwed up by boss,boss,cos I did something tat I am being taught,I was doing it so correctly until he say I shld hav tink isit right before doing it.U are the boss so I dun argue wif you,cos I am still unfamiliar wif many things yet,I can't argue back.Bt making an eg.,if you dunno wat is a pen and wat is a pencil,and I am the person who is authorize to teach you pen and pencil.I giv u a pencil and tell you it's a pen,will you still tink tat the pen is nt a pen,shld be a pencil.Or you will juz simply follow?Alright,I admit I shldn't follow blindly,I hav fault too,bt...who will noe tat is incorrect?I noe very little thing onli eh,I didn't ask you to expect so much frm me eh,so why are you?And nw here you are to blame me?-.- Another prob here,wat is the jealousy abt?They are juz so compatible,yeah..the both of them,so why am i having so weird feeling?Awww..heard tat you are leaving us soon,gg back to ur original place,by knowing tat..I am seriously damn sad,asked me to stay and all gg off one by one,NICE ONE!Bt...why am I feeling sad?Cos I can no longer see you so often,or cos my boss wun be you anymore,nt so nice lik u anymore?Why giv me so many troubles?Wth is tis?I juz expect a job which giv me wat I expect and I can clearly understand wat I am doing,and wat I shld do,nt like nw..my jobscope keep on increasing until I really dunno which one shld I focus on.Shit all these!I nv expect to be part of the co.,I am juz here cos to earn money,nt becos of this co. :/

2011-05-05T12:14:00.001+08:00

At tis moment,tis kind of feeling is so torturing.Feel lik dying so much.And it was nt the first time,been having obstacles in my life.I thought i hav found a vision for my future,trying to believe it can be done,bt..no,i was wrong.Nw,it was juz a small business,so called a "trying out",and juz a little obstacles we met,already become lik tis,fcuk!It's juz ur "unwilling to lose" attitude,wth are u trying to prove?Why being so over-protective for urself,tat doesn't mean u can be inconsiderate for other's.And yet i am nt juz other's,bt ur sister.So why are u arguing wif me tat sumthing even if u win u oso wun hav any reward?It's juz as simple as i wanna talk things out and nt prove tat who will win in the end,why juz can't u understand?Tis is a business,it's nt a game,and since we are partnership,every single details,both of us shld noe well.Tat's why i am asking u,and wat's ur attitude?Say i am irritating,say i dunno hw to check?Hey pls..u shld hav let me noe and nt wait until i ask u,hw would i noe whether it hav box or rather hw would i noe u dun even noe whether it hav box anot,u wan me check u juz let me noe,send me the file,nt giving fcuking attitude and fcuking tone saying "u dunno hw to check uh,everything oso i do".Are u sure u doing everything?U do more doesn't mean u are doing everything,and u are doing tat cos supplier is ur friend,onli u are able to do tat,so why are u blaming?If u tink it's unfair then why are we doing it in the first place?U are the one who mention it.And we are paying it tgt in the same amount,u didn't pay more.So why muz i see ur face?Everytime i ask u and u dun wanna reply,when i hav sumthing else to do and yet u find me to discuss.Wth is tat?I am slping,i am working tomoro too,and why can't u be considerate?We hav already delay so many days,so do u tink 1 more day of delay will affect anything?U are showing attitude cos of ur emotional,u bring ur anger back home frm work and u vent it on us,bt do u tink u are the onli one having those kind of prob?Everyone's hav their own prob,if u wan to vent,pls vent it on sumthing tat wun feel hurt,tat hav no pain,no tears,no heart,no blood.Juz one word onli,disappointed!

2011-04-23T22:11:00.000+08:00

When thr's chances came to u,grab it tight,cos chances onli find u once.Yea...i noe,bt..when chances is nt wat u are looking for or u still haven be prepared to take the chances,wat are u gg to do?Firstly,i am afraid i will lose the chance.Secondly,i am afraid i had successfully grab the chance bt dunno wat to do wif it.Am i being overestimated?I wan to prove myself,bt i seem so lost.I am juz lik a beggar,enter a castle and being mistaken tat i was a princess.LOL.-.- Tis description seems abit ridiculous bt i am in tis situation nw,and yet..i hav no one to talk to,cos whoever i talk to..all the ans become a pressure to me.It's lack of confident again,i noe..bt hw to gain confident,hw is confident suppose to be,i told myself umpteen times..juz go wif it,it's a chances,etc. ..bt,those kind of self-encourages doesn't work,in the end i still can't cross over my own timid.And nw,wat came to my mind is the onli word i can tink to lessen the stress..tat is "When the boat gets to the pier-head, it will go straight with the current".Hope so...-.-

2011-04-10T21:25:00.002+08:00

I feel so sucky,damn...i hate tis feeling.Mixed feeling,so many things bothering and i dunno which is the one tat make me feel so sucky.Dad...tonite after 12am is my b'dae,let me drm can??Pls...xie xie.I miss u dad,shun bian tell me do u lik the pouch i make for u.

2011-03-26T18:53:00.003+08:00

I..become more and more moody each and everyday,wat's the reason..forget abt it.Haix..ytd,mum when for an minor op,tis minor op is to remove sumthing tat if nv found out early or if nv take gd care,will become dangerous.And though it's fine nw,hope it's really fine.I took leave ytd to accompany mum.And becos of ytd leave,i worked OT on thurs to finish tat 74 pieces of GR.Bt lucky it was a small load,nt large lik the previous one,do until i feel lik quitting,LOL.Lik crazy,sis and me took alots of photos inside the hospital rm,until mum went for op,we went to buy tau sar piah(loong fatt) to pray dad tomoro at cck,cos it was "qing ming jie",then we went back,mum was out,then xiao jiu and dajiu came to visit mum,and went off after 1 hr plus lata,while mum resting,sis and me went velocity to bring bro to visit mum as he dunno hw to walk frm the mrt station to the place.And 3 of us was beside mum,accompanying her.Then...again,i started to tink,hw unfilial i was few yrs ago when dad found out sumwhr near his kidney hav those stone,hav to go for an minor op to take out,bt...i forget why i wasn't by his side,accompanying him lik hw i accompany mum nw.We went to visit dad after his op,before tat..he was all alone,by himself..hw lonely it was,dad...why did u leave so early,thr's so much i wan to do for u,thr's so much we need to repay u,thr's so much we still need u.We love u dad,we miss u.

2011-03-16T22:42:00.000+08:00

My mood has been up and down.Wat's the main reason,i dunno.It could be u,it could be him,it could her,it could be anything.I thought thr was a chance to work wif my friend tgt in the same co.,bt too bad,it doesn't suit her,she dun wan the work,the boss oso dun wan her,and yah..fair enough.Juz quite disappointed.Bt..no fate,wat else can i do.I am stress...i feel the stress coming towards my way,the date to my contract end is nearby,shld i or shld i nt continue?Do the co. wan me to stay?Will i be convert to perm or will they wan me to sign another contract,hw much pay,wat benefits will i get?Wow...hard decision,bt..job is nt easy to find.Serious.I hav a doubt.A him in my mind nw,hav i giv up the 8 yrs one?I dun wan tis him to take away my another 8 yrs..so i really dun wan to let myself fall in tis trap.I am scare too.He's nt talking to me,alrite..continue tis way,let's nt talk...pls do nt talk to me until i hav no more feeling for u.I dun wan to create another illusion,I dun wan to let myself hav any other reason to say u actually hav feeling for me too.Bt...it came out juz my misperception.Tat feeling nt gd.Baddddd.Am i normal?I mean my health.I am always tired,big maternal aunt came find me twice a mth,and previously thr was a free testing of cholesterol,result came out i actually hav "high" cholesterol too.LOL.H-E-A-L-T-H-Y.

2011-03-07T19:39:00.001+08:00

Had a chat wif boss today,cos it was lunch time and i didn't went,lol...then talk and talk,i am still searching for my future,still in the maze of my life,still dunno wat i wan,my boss told me,even at his age nw,he oso dunno wat he really wan,bt yea..he juz work lo..cos he is working the job tat he study for the course.It was nice to noe hw ppl deal wif their life,cos..frm thr,u can use to do some reference.Alots of stuff tat i actually noe it even if nobody told me,bt...it's juz the prob of settling,lik..eg.i noe i hav to go 20 storey in order to success,bt...thr is no lift,no stairs...hw i go?I hav to find a way,and i noe the way is either i find a ladder or i get a hotair balloon or etc etc..bt...i dunno which way i use is better,if i use a ladder,maybe i haven reach 20 storey i already faint,if hotair balloon,maybe i couldn't reach the destination i wan.So...tat is why i really dunno wat i wan.Unless..thr is sumthing which really giv me the motivation towards it.Zhen me ban?WHEN WILL I FIND TIS "SUMTHING"?LOL..my boss say,why so many ppl in the world,he hired some weirdo lik me -.-.

2011-02-28T19:08:00.002+08:00

Today,28 feb...i still haven forget tis date,cos..it still mean sumthing to me,i guess.During 28th Feb 2008,i told u,and u indirectly rejected,though i didn't realise tat time,bt after so many yrs,i tink i shld hav waked up.I was being rejected.And,tat's true.And nw,u hav found ur happiness...she is the onli one u hav be wif for so long.For me,i will try nt to tink anymore,if it's for me,it will come someday.Hoping nt to hav OT today and glad i didn't hav OT.My current boss left the co.,today was his last day in the co. and after today,new boss will be taking over.Today is oso my baobei xixi(pingxi) last day in my hse,as she will be gg to childcare,wun be coming my hse and will nt get to see her often anymore,hope will still be in contact.I will miss her :(.And i really feel tired.Why are thr always prob for the things i hav done,today..another prob occurs,and..can i solve it smoothly?I can't find the document,why sia?Fcuk!Out of so many part,why the document which missing is the part tat hav prob?-.- DBK uh,BPBP!

2011-02-20T19:31:00.000+08:00

I saw a sentences and it gav me a thought,the person whom u lov the most will always be the person tat hurt u most.Is tat true?I realise,it doesn't seems to be tat way.Everybody can hurt u,bt..u feel tat the person whom u lov,hurt u most,is juz becos...tat person is the onli one u care..so,when tat person do sumthing tat hurt u,u will feel terribly hurt.Juz lik thr can be 5 peoples saying the same thing to u,bt...onli the one u care will let u keep it in mind.Argh...i am juz bored,getting more and more abnormal,can't seem to control my emotions anymore,wat happened to me?I dun lik myself to become tis way.I really dun lik the feeling sia.

Dad...so long nv let me drm of u lerHx,whr are u?

2011-02-11T19:41:00.000+08:00

I feel the stress,finally noe hw working environment is,work is getting more and more heavier,thr's no time for me to take a breathe,and...seriously,i dunno wat i hav done,fuck...isit really my fault anot?They nv giv me the paper,hw i fill the paper,i am nt octopus,i onli hav two hands,one brain..idiot,if 3 mths lata u still my boss,i dun tink thr's any reason for me to stay in the co.,and i dun understand,why muz i wear safety glasses when i am facing a com?If u expect me to wear it when i walk around,i can understand..bt wearing glasses when i am facing the com it's really fucking lame!Wan me do tis while i haven finish tat,wth?Then u do shit?Onli noe hw to ask ppl do it for u,say wat u work in the co. fucking long and then?So?I giv a damn?Frm wat co. ppl told me,u are juz some kind of ppl tat onli say big do nth.Today mood is totally spoil by u tis uncle,FUCK!Anw...new boss is kinda gd,bt for nw is..for future whether thr will be any changes anot,i dunno.Maybe he onli temp be our boss,maybe he will change attitude,tat's nt for me to predict.Well...i can onli say,i am tired,and everytime i am tired at work,i will start to miss tis person tat once work tgt wif me and lead me throughout,without tis wall,the pressure all came to me,and i heard someone say...u came back,to look for us..bt,nobody saw u.So..isit true?累

2011-02-05T17:26:00.001+08:00

The 3rd day of CNY..and yea,we were juz staying at home.Mum went out wif xiaojiu to go her auntie hse bai nian.Wat hav done during the two days of cny,well..i can onli say it was as usual,bt...something diff was,on the first day of cny,for nite event..sis and me bring abt 4-5 cousin sister out,whr to go actually we hav no idea,was tinking of booking a hotel,was tinking slacking outside,was tinking watching movie,aha...and in the end,wat we do was..we went to buy alots of snack tat cost almost $50/-,and plan to book hotel or either slack at somewhr we can sit,bt...wat surprise us was,thr are FUNFAIR,and yea...all of us couldn't stop the temptation so we went thr to hav some rides,sis,me and 2 cousins sit for the first rides and it was 360 degree,wow...haha,kinda cool.Then sis,and another 3 cousins sit for the 2nd rides and it was merry go round?Haha.And after tat we went to somewhr sit down and thr we start our "picnic".We play the game true or dare,and it was quite interesting bt nt to the extent.We even saw a taiwan drama actor at the end of the game,as one of the cousin was being dare to hug a guy and she accidentally approach him.LOL.Then,we take train back to grandma hse,gambling till i no money,hav mac supper,and went home to slp at abt 3am plus.

For the 2nd day of CNY,actually was supposed to go grandma hse(father's side),bt...in the end we hav went malaysia(pontian) wif mum and families.We reach thr,eat alots of snack and then went karaoke,it was suppose to be fun bt i am nt so sure why i can't be enthu,maybe too tired?After karaoke,time was abt 4-5pm,went back to ah yi hse and hav steamboat dinner,then gambling session start,lol..after tat we play "pao",it was noisy bt tat's the way CNY shld be (:.And as for today,wat make it interesting,i guess is onli the mac lunch,LOL.And juz 1 more day,work start again.

2011-01-30T20:50:00.000+08:00

Endure,endure,endure.The onli thing i can do now is endure.Bt i am juz afraid,afraid before i can endure till the end,i already end it all.I dunno...i am feeling so complicated,i dun need ppl who's not trying to care instead,was trying to add salt to my wound to be here looking at everything i am gg through.I can't say tat thr's nobody thr for me,bt juz...wat can they do more for me?Everyone's gg through their own troubles,everyone can console,and care for the person who's having the troubles,bt who can really be thr and really solved the problem for the person who's having the troubles?Nobody.Hw long more?It was stated 2 mths plus more,bt after tis 2 mths plus,maybe i am freedom for tis trouble,bt hw many more are thr infront waiting for me?Why are thr waves in life?To make a person stronger?I don't tink so,human gg through would onli tink they have become stronger,bt...each and everytime,is onli they tink they are,did they really become stronger after gg through all these?For me,after gg through,i become weaker,i would told myself i wouldn't wan to meet the same thing again.I will hide frm it.Tomoro will be the last day he would be thr to settle for me thing tat are nt settle,i am thks to him,bt...after he left,i can't imagine hw to survive for tat 2 mths plus.Relying is nt a gd thing,and i didn't realise,for tis 2 wks,i hav been relying on him,and nw..i am doom.

2011-01-26T21:39:00.000+08:00

Today is a bad bad day,cos thr's a bad bad news regarding my job.The guy hav been teaching me all stuffs,hav been my helping hand,decided to resign at the 31st of jan due to some of his family prob,and after tat..i will be working alone,i am shock after i overheard tis news,and i actually wanted to ask the guy to reconfirm it bt before i ask him,the supervisor already told me instead,my mood was lik totally 180 degree changed,is it true?Omgosh...wif him around i already work till lik no time to rest,without him around,hw am i gg to carry on for tis 2 mths plus?Thr's still alots of stuff which i am still nt sure,unknown,haven noe yet..hw am i gg to manage it when he leave sia?Lunch time,i am texting wif wifey,jie and calling mum,i told them i am sad,wifey called me,asked me wat happened,and i wan to let them noe wat happen bt out of sudden,i feel the word stuck,if i start to talk,i would juz cry out,so..i told wifey i text her abt wat happen,and..contract really isn't sumthing to play wif,i dunno wat's wrong wif it,i hav been very careful bt i still met tis incident by finding tis job.After lunch,back to working area..i asked the guy why is he quitting,and thr he told me as wat i hav mention above,then he asked me "why",i told him "i will be very lonely,and thr's still lots of stuff i dunno",while saying tis sentences...my tears start to drop,the more i am trying to control,the more tears i drop,at the point of time..i really hate myself for being so weak.I onli noe,i am scare,really scare...the feeling which i had,nt the first time,bt really dun wanna to hav it again.

P.S Everything i hav written,regarding is at my blog,fb or etc.,as long as it's my matter,pls keep it private and confidential,i welcome u to view it,noe it bt nt spread it.

2011-01-18T19:21:00.000+08:00

It's my first day of work today.Hm...so far i hav no much interest on it,as it was a warehouse environment,uncle's environment and guys environment,and...can say i am the onli gal over thr,so as i walk around the warehouse,i am lik some weird alien or wat for them to view.And...the job is complicated,wonder as time flies,i can noe more.Bt for nw...i can onli say,if..i am nt tied down by contract,today will be my last day for tis job.I am a failure?I guess so..i giv up easily on things i dislik.Maybe..tat's why i can't do things well.And this time maybe is some sort of punishment for me,for me tis kind of failure attitude,dunno hw to tink attitude.It's suck..bt i will go on for tis 3 mths,no matter wat,and after 3 mths wat will it be i dunno,it depends?I might continue if i am adapted,i might nt.LOL..why do i hav the same feeling as when i am in ite 1st yr?:/

2011-01-14T23:29:00.000+08:00

Human's nature,when u dun hav sumthing,u will keep on chasing for it,until u hav it..u will start to worry,isit gd?And start to tink and tink and tink alots of shit..yah,tat's the shit in my brain nw,i been looking for job for so long..and nw,i seem to hav found,i started worrying...my gosh,is tis job gd?The pay lik tis gd?Will the people's over thr gd?Hw long can i tahan in tis job?Really gd uh?Really can uh?Wah...today i hav been frustrated by myself wif these ques...nonsense,of cos i noe,nv do,nv noe..bt still will hav tat worried kind of feeling...argh,shit!Fan si wo -.-.

2011-01-09T12:55:00.000+08:00

I am filling in tears nw,after reading the story of my dad tat my sis hav written in a website http://www.writing.com/main/view_item/item_id/1738826-Dad-Part-1 ,tis link is the part1 and i hav read part2 juz few mins ago,and every single sentences remind me every single details happened "tat day",lik it was juz ytd..i onli noe tat we can appear to be so fine infront of everybody's is nt becos of the time hav flies,the things hav passed so long,feeling hav faded or watever shit,bt..is becos,we hav nv dare to really go and tink abt dad is really gone,and for tis life,we will nv get to see him anymore.If today,we sit tgt and tink abt it..i believe,the pain will lik a tornado,and our tears will lik water tap,the feeling lik 2 yrs ago remain the same,thr's one day in the car,sis was working..so thr was onli mum,bro,me and 2 kids mum taking care of in the car,we talk abt something and suddenly talk abt dad..thr is one time,dad was very sick,in the morning,he drive us using his cab to pioneer mall to hav breakfast,then he went to see doctor over thr,after everything..on the way home,thr was a road which u-turn need to let the car go straight to passby first,bt dad actually u-turn without letting the car go straight to passby,and very coincidence tat thr was a police car behind,so the police car stopped my dad car,and i can see dad was very scare,he scare nt becos of the police,bt..he scare if the police take away his license,he cannot earn money to take care of us anymore,and i rmb the police was very fierce,we beg him so long and he finally giv us a chance,i felt very heartpain tinking abt tis,u noe wat..my dad was sick,he is really really sick,u(the police) ask my dad sick then dun drive car bt wat do u noe?My bro NS,sis and me was studying,my dad is the onli person earning money in tis home,wat shit do u noe?My dad might be wrong,bt..no matter wat,he is an adult,why do u talk to him in the way lik scolding him,he is really sick,really really sick,u dunno hw much it pain us,his sickness..hav nv recover,nv at all...till the day he passed away,i hope he is fine nw in another world,i feel myself so unfilial at times,i dunno the reason,i juz feel so.Dad...we miss u so much,so so much.

2011-01-01T10:18:00.001+08:00

Happy New Year 2011 (:.Yea..the first day of 2011,and i am gonna say abt the happening on 2010.At the yr of 2010,i hav study a make-up course at Cosmoprof,frm thr...i hav attended events lik MBS opening ceremony to make-up for the kids,NDP to make-up for the performers and YOG to make-up for the performers too.Throughout 3 of the events,i lik MBS the most =P.After my cosmoprof,it was abt sept,i hav take up a job tat is nt related to make-up bt it was a 2wks temp event job NJRC(National Junior Robotic Competition) at science centre,at first..i noe nth abt tis job,i start to fear and dunno shld i work for tis job,bt...as i consider it was a 2wks job,so i giv it a try,as i am nt working alone,i work wif esther too,bt..at first,me and esther was being told tat we will be working diff kind of thing,at first esther was being put as team coordinator and me was crowd control,bt..as esther unable to attend the training so our position was switch,become i am team coordinator and esther is crowd control,first day working..me and esther went tgt,bt esther was nt being told tat she onli need to came 1 wk lata,so esther being put to team coordinator,same as me (;.Thr we go,1st wk..presentation wk,it was omg fun,frm thr..we get to communicate wif students,our "boss" and our working partners,we become friend,and it was really fun,we always meet at mrt station and walk to work tgt,eat tgt,and walk to take train home tgt,i still missing those fun nw,the first job which i wish i could be able to work lik forever?Haha.2nd wk of the job is challenge wk,come to tis part,at first i am really quite worried abt i couldn't do it well,bt at the first day,i admit i didn't do it really well,bt half of the first day,i get to click wif the job,it's juz leading the students here and thr,frm thr...i noe some new friends intro by esther,and oso i noe those students...i lik those 2 wks,can hav fun,can make friends,can earn money at the same time.After tis job,i been slacking at home abt 1 mth plus and start to find a perm job,bt sadly..till nw i still couldn't found one,i guess i am too choosy,will see hw,hope a new yr bring me somewhr else.Somewhr which i could mention it on the next yr lik hw i mention cosmoprof,njrc on the New yr 2011 (:

2010-12-18T20:58:00.001+08:00

Since dad passed away,thr are already 2 yrs we nv paint our hse wall,and today...we start to paint our living rm wall,hm...wat a tiring day,after breakfast at koufu..we went home and started to paint,i guess we spended 3 hrs to paint the whole living rm..i paint for 2 hrs and helped sis and her friend for make-up and hairstyling as they are having office gathering for dinner,unfortunately..i guess sis doesn't seems to be very happy with her hairstyle.Cos i dun hav the curling tongs so nt able to make the style she wan though i roughly noe wat kind of hairstyle she wan it to be.Then after sis and her friend went off...mum,bro,me and claudia went to jp and hav dinner,our dinner is pizzahut,full (:.Alrite..i guess tat's all?Haha..tomoro continue to paint again as today is onli cover the base,tomoro then the color,tired tired tired.

2010-12-09T17:35:00.002+08:00

One day pass one day,kinda fast..tomoro mum and me will be gg for holiday at Royal Caribbean,4 days 3 nites...it was the first time i seat cruise,though hw i wish it was a family trip bt sadly it wasn't,hope thr will be a chance bah,ever since long ago..my first wish is to go oversea wif family,at least once..wif dad,mum,bro and sis...bt tis wish can nv happen anymore,even dad really by our side gg wif us,so wat?It's juz diff,we can't see him around,can't even feel him around.Can onli imagine he is really around.Tomoro is ping xi b'dae,aww..happy 2yrs old b'dae to her,and thks to my bitch wifey esther for spending her time on fri and sat to help to take care claudia as her mum cannot take off oso cannot find anyone to take care of her,tat's why esther will be taking care of her these two days.Alrite,tat shld be all.Hope to enjoy. (;

2010-11-27T15:58:00.002+08:00

Here to blog abt ytd happening,ytd was cousin sis Peixi BIG DAY!And yea...she was getting married on 26th Nov 2010.Abt 11am,mum,bro,me and 2 little kids(Pingxi and Claudia) went to 2nd uncle hse to hav buffet,wait for the bride and bridal to serve tea to the elder's.After tat,they was having photo taking session...then went off,we went home after tat too.Rest at home awhile and get prepared for tonite wedding dinner at Pan Pacific Hotel!(: Yup...bro drive xiao jiu car and fetch 4th uncle and his family then drive us over,we was having fun in the car by bro and 4th uncle conversation,HAHA!Reach hotel,outside the ocean ballroom,having some drinks,peanuts and photo-taking :).After tat...abt 7pm plus,went in the ballroom,hav a seat and abt 8pm plus,the wedding dinner started..abt tis part,shall let the photos hav the talk.Dinner ends around 11pm plus...totally exhausted,abt tis..when i say i was tired..ppl will start to say,u stay at home everyday oso can tired,i noe i noe..bt yea,i juz can't help bt seriously tired,wat can i do -.-.And i hope to found a job real soon,pls dun rush me =(,can't find a suitable job,i am nt happy too yah!Alrite..let's nt spoil the mood..shall uploads photos (;.Oh yah,on the way back home,sis went to meet her bf,then left mum,bro,me,4th uncle and his family,bro and 4th uncle conversation start again,really very funny...hahaha.

2010-11-21T21:14:00.001+08:00

为什么今天，突然间，有一种觉得这世界很可怕的感觉。

2010-11-14T00:36:00.000+08:00

Touch my heart,bt u nv turn back once..looking at ur back,frm a distance i can feel u,even until nw...the feeling nv faded,frm the first sight,first day i notice u...crave in my mind,i still rmb hw it was,so many yrs..nv change,if the camera did nt spoil,if those photos taken can be wash out...if..then i will hav more memories abt u and me,why,can't i?Hw i wish to noe,hav u ever notice me,wanna talk to me,wanna be close wif me.Hav u ever?Be it foolish or stupid,i juz can't get u off my mind,i tried..bt,saw u i juz nv fail to hav the "hard to breathe,heart pump fast" feeling,beyond my control uh..tell me,who in tis world can let u leave my heart,leave my mind,leave my world?I really envy of her,every "her" who hav step into ur heart before.

Reality,juz can't be lik drama.
So bitter yet so swt,nv once fail to be wif the one they lov.
Nv hav sad ending when the ending are suppose to be happy.
Hw to say..the feeling juz lik looking at the sky,so big..so nice..surrounded u..bt,u juz couldn't hav it,cos it's juz for view.

2010-11-08T11:53:00.001+08:00

Hm..i am confuse nw,tis thurs i am supposed to go for a job interview,bt..i really dunno isit a rite choice,nobody to ask,so..when ytd i go to kuan yin temple at bugis,i pray for a "lot",then the lot tell me to stay in the way i am,i dun understand tis meaning,cos the old way is to slack at home,tat shldn't be the way wat,then is lik..i nv get the ans i wan,still...i gain more stress -.-.Today tis morning,i went to st91..then go to the temple i often go,pray another "lot" frm dua beh kong,LOL...tis time,the ans is almost same as ytd,stay in the old way,then things will be fine,wth...and i hav decide to go for the interview tis thurs,no choice..i still dunno wat to do,so..shall let nature takes it course.

2010-10-18T22:30:00.000+08:00

I am back frm 15-17 oct genting trip,was a seriously extremely tired trip,first day waked at 5am plus,prepared and cab to boon lay market thr,hav breakfast and wait for bus,then way to genting,watch hercules on the way (:,cos onli tis cartoon tempted me =P.NICEEEE...lol.Finish watching,then nap,get down the bus for some check in,custom stuff...then back to bus,lik so finally we reach at abt 2pm,then for a very loooooong time,we juz wait for the key to go in the hotel,abt evening then we get the key as they say tat their system down or wat shit -.-,then why no announcement made?Okie..then get in hotel and sis,me,jas,dexter and claudia went for indoor funfair,argh.....was nt fun can?Cos dexter and claudia are too small for most of the game...and claudia stick on me and dun wan anyone to carry,mum,bro,bro's friend,jas mum went to casino,gd uh...left claudia for us,LOL.Alrite..then,we juz play until very late,and we missed alot of game and stuff cos of the kid,claudia used up all my strength,and so..i am very very very tired,back to hotel at abt 12 plus then bath and slp..i guess i didn't hav a gd slp?Cos i was lik awaked along the nite as it was very cold,i need the sock,LOL...then nvm,finally get up at 8am plus,get ready and went to hav breakfast,marybrown,nasi lemak,lol...alrite onli,then went to shop wif mum,sis and claudia while the other's went back hotel and rest,then 2-3pm plus,bring mum and claudia back to hotel and outdoor funfair for sis and me (:.Bt..we onli get to play until 5pm plus,cos..we gg to mushrm garden for dinner,nt nice (:.Then back to hotel,sis and me take care of claudia again while other's went casino -.-.Tat was bad,i carry all the way,imagine my hand gg to broke and i cannot shop anything at all,my rubber band for tying hair gone missing COS OF HER =/.Back to hotel wif sis at abt 10pm plus,we cannot tahan bringing her here and thr while she dun wanna walk,dun wan my sis carry and nt easy to carry -_-.Awhile lata,mum was back to hotel too,then we bath and slp,tis time round..i did slp,bt..the best part was,i having headache the next day.8am plus waked,pack and went oldtown white coffee for breakfast,same name,same menu,same design,bt...diff taste,diff size,lol.Back to first world and we wanna go in casino derHx,bt..we nv bring IC,sis shld be can go in,bt as nv bring along IC so oso cannot go in,LOL..so omg,we stay outside to take care of claudia AGAIN.Then mum happily went out,noe wat happen uh,haha..then we go shop,mum bought a bracelet for me :D.After tat,back to hotel take luggage,bro and me went starbuck,drink caramel macchiato and bro drink caffe mocha,nice one..tis time,take care of dexter and claudia and other's went casino,abt 2pm plus,we went up bus and way back to sg,on the way..i vomited,feel very terrible -.-,then 7pm plus,bus stop for us to hav dinner and up bus again,on the way to sg i am nt feeling well :(.Finally back to boon lay market at 10pm,thks to xiaojiu,he went to drive us home,back home..slp.............today i dun feel well too,terribly headache.Nt a very fun trip,lol.

2010-10-04T01:05:00.005+08:00

I lik ur care and concern,bt..do u mean it or are u juz entertaining?I miss u calling my name,talking to me,smiling at me,helping me,find me when i am bored,care abt me,concern me,entertain me,bt...when can i meet u again?When the first time we met,i noe clearly i onli admire u,at tat time,i didn't noe we would be in contact after tat and u will giv me tat feeling.I am afraid to chat wif u,cos i am afraid u wun respond or tell me brb and go mia,u are sumtime cold and sumtime hot,i dunno hw u feel towards me,i need a clear ans,i dun wan to fall in bottomless pit again.

2010-09-05T09:33:00.001+08:00

Today is the day tat dad lefted us for 3 yrs,time pass really fast,morning waked up at abt 6am as ahyi frm malaysia came our hse at abt 5am plus and their conversation was too loud,lol...sit at the living rm and went back to slp awhile lata,abt 8am plus and i was waked again,nw...is 9am plus,waiting for sai gong to come and "ling ling ling",LOL.Ytd while working was seriously moody till i cannot take it,it was lik sumthing stuck in my chest and yea,sumthing happened,and wat i can say is lucky we hav those working mates over thr to cheer us up,and the pack of M&M (;.I am grateful to them,ytd the mrt was really mess..due to some prob abt upgrading,tomoro working schedule will be diff frm last wk,and i hope i can cope it,quite worried,cos i was nt so clear abt hw it's gg to work,hm...firstly,we waited for 7 days,and..we waited for 100 days,then...we waited for 1 yr and today,is the 3 yrs.Daddy...................we love and miss u,whr are u????????

2010-08-25T23:07:00.005+08:00

Sick xD
Tired..sat coming...kinda fast,lol.
And...dad 3 yrs soon too,hope i dun hav to work for tat day,nt sure can anot,cos i haven ask,hope to be excuse for tat day.Tat was juz a temp job,after tat...getting a real job soon.Juz a short post,nite (;

As i expected,it still didn't make it in the end.

I admit,i am envy of u,having him by ur side,treasure u,lov u.

2010-08-10T23:00:00.004+08:00

Starting to get used to my new phone..lol.And wow..it's been quite a long time since I last saw him,and...shld I say shock or surprise tat I actually saw him today.No matter wat,I feel so useless to hav those feeling,keep reminding myself umpteen times tat it shld be over.Why?why onli u can let me hav tis kind of feeling even though u done nth?It's the 7th mth,dad...hav u come out?We miss u..pls let us feel u are around.Tomoro hav to go for YOG,hope it gonna be a fun one,kinda worried,lol..tired,nite (;

2010-07-31T21:40:00.002+08:00

Tired,tired,tired...and yea,today is the 4th day i went ndp at padang to help performers face paint,bt...2 of my friends wasn't thr as one was back to indo and one didn't sign to go for the 4th day,and oso was my last day gg thr as i wun be gg on the actual day,today was kinda strict over thr,maybe becos next wk is National Day already tat's why,we hav to get down the bus and walk in as the bus cannot enter,and oso before gg in,we hav to scan the bag and our body,was lik...wth -.-.And oso hav alot polices tat we didn't saw on the first 3 days,hm...was a busy day,we are the face painter bt we need to help out those make-up ppls to put the foundation and loose powder for the choir kids as it was quite rush,until my hand was lik keep working non-stop,bt since it's the last day so i am enjoying it (;.Taking picts over thr and today weather was damn hot,really cannot tahan,lol...feel slpy,i feel so emotional today,lol...feeling suck.Dun lik to be tis way bt i can't help,wanna to gain more confident,i dun need to be lik anyone,bt myself.

2010-07-24T22:35:00.002+08:00

I finally watch blood pledge after everytime noticing the ads in mrt station,LOL..bt...overall the movie,i onli lik the last part of the show,which was kinda touching.Today 3rd times make-up for NDP performers,and was quite moody,next wk gonna be less ppl,shld i go or shld nt?Still considering,test coming soon,everything gg to start afresh soon too.I guess i will miss the life in cosmoprof bah,nt becos of the sch,bt becos of the mates i hav get to know,it's true tat u will get to meet diff kind of ppls in every diff parts of ur life,and i really enjoy it,at least..those ppls i met over thr was quite friendly,and having so much fun for these 2 mths tgt wif them,till nw..i still missing the MBS day,lol...i guess it's oso after tat day,we started to talk more and get close more wif each and everyone bah.

Do u noe,i start to mention u to my friends again.Does it mean i start to tink of u again?
I dunno,my friend asked me:"now,do u still lik him",at the moment,i dunno wat to ans,yes or no?I told her,i dunno..and,i really dunno.

2010-07-16T21:38:00.000+08:00

I hav enough of all the attitude,i noe it hurts if u really mean it,bt i oso dun mean to do it,bt...can pls dun giv me attitude?Why can't let it be pure friendship?As u said u dun wan to lost me as a friend,so am i,yet u say i onli treat u as nobody,i nv say tat.Why u say it?I might regret sumday,lik hw i am nw,bt wat can i do,nw...i juz dun learn hw to treasure,i am sori.

2010-07-11T23:51:00.003+08:00

I went to make-up for ndp performances ytd,and i suppose it will be a busy day bt ytd was quite fine,as we dun hav to help choir make-up,bt i guess next wk wun be tat lucky,haha..anw,it was still tired.My life,nw..was still okie,i am worried abt after tat,i noe,i muz and gonna get a gd job after my learning reaching the fullstop,juz lik i gonna start a new paragraph,bt...hw i gonna begin the new paragraph?If..i mean if,the beginning of my paragraph is nt nice,who gonna be interested for the rest of the paragraph?I can't return,can onli go forward and make the back of the story interesting,can i do it?Say,is always easier than done.Can i hav a smoother road after tat?All these yrs,it seems lik thr will be sumthing blocking the way throughout,otherwise..it was lik too quiet till adnormal,lik sumthing coming on the back,LOL...hope i am juz tinking too much,nt sure wat i am gg to mean too,juz all these pop up my mind out of sudden and so i am typing out.Gonna went to slp.Bye.

2010-06-24T23:46:00.001+08:00

Long time no blog,lol..ytd went to MBS wif sch to make-up for choir kids as they are performing for MBS opening ceremony,waked at 4.30am,and reach sch by 6.35am sumthing..asked us nt to be later by 6.55am,bt in the end we get up the bus at 7.05am,lol.Reach thr,get our lanyard and went in the convention centre if i am nt wrong,then the ppl thr bring us to one rm,thr are tables,chairs,and buffet!Hahas..bt we cannot eat first,sit thr..prepared our things and wait for the kids to come,taking photos while waiting,it was cold over thr and we are nt allow to bring our jacket,abt 8am sumthing then those kids came,and we started to rush to make-up for them,gosh...they are really really damn cute,we hav session 1,2 & 3,we finish 1st session at 10.45am,eat the breakfast buffet and went to break at another big rm which prepared for us,we hav to be back and go to the 1st rm at 1.45pm,during tis time,was bored..me and mates taking photos everywhr,and thr was abt 5 person went off due to working,finally 1.30pm and we went back to 1st rm,touch up for them,after finish,we hav the 2nd buffet at abt 3.45pm,as usual...went to the big rm for us to rest,left our box thr and went to shop...walk walk everywhr till 5.45pm,another 2 person went off as they are having sumthing on,then left abt 7 person for the 3rd session,surprisingly thr are buffet again,hahas...and i damn lik the 2 kids over thr ttm,1 little boy and 1 little gal,the 3 sessions they oso come to me,the little boy chatted wif me when i hav nobody to touch up,hahas...was so cute,bt so sad i forget to take photo wif him =(.Most of the kids over thr are cute,lol...bt some are really naughty and choosy,lucky they didn't come to me =X.After 3rd session,we hav the buffet and went off at abt 8pm sumthing,share cab wif 3 mates to cityhall mrt station and each pay abt $3.20,reach home abt 9pm.Tired bt fun (;

I feel great tat i hav the chance to go through tis trip,it was a feeling tat i can't explain when i tink back of the happening,i am willing for the same things if it can happen again.I feel the fun tat was gone for so long.

2010-06-03T22:16:00.002+08:00

Here come my post again,decide to post as sumthing gt up to me tis morning,while on my way to somewhr,a reporter come forward and tell me abt the incident happened on the place tat someone gt stabbed,and ask me for the comment,i reply tat i didn't noe abt tis matter,then she ask me tat nw i noe lerHx,will i be afraid,i ans yea..abit,she asked again,will u dare to walk here alone still when u already noe abt tis incident,i reply yah,as i hav to...cos no other way i can walk.Hm...i search for the news abt tis incident when i reached home,then gt some idea abt it.Erm...and here come wat i gonna said.I feel tat the quote "life is precious" doesn't affect to everyone tinking.And i seriously feel tat if u dun treasure things u hav,go ahead damage ur own life,dun implicate innocent ppl in,ppl hav their life,their families,their hope and etc. bt becos of ur selfishness act,u hurt the person,u hurt the person families,u affect the publics to tink tat the world is nt safe,u do a bad example for the younger generation to see,and oso u let ur life ruined.Tink twice,nobody owe u when u hav gt nth,u hav gt nth cos tat's ur fate,who to blame?Well...maybe tat person owe u sumthing is his/her previous life?It's really nt being fair,believe wat goes around comes around?U done sumthing and u are gonna pay for it.I hope tis post can be read by many ppl especially ppl who are tinking to do bad things rite nw,better hav them to read tis post so they can hav a chance to tink before act.No matter is urself or others,tink,the world shldn't be tis way,tiger,lion,crocodile,shark,are they scary?No...human is more scarier than them.

2010-05-24T20:27:00.001+08:00

Ytd went to Marina Bay Sand and Resort World Sentosa wif mum,xiao jiu and his family.For me,i will tink tat Resort World Sentosa is more fun and interesting than Marina Bay Sand,as Marina Bay Sand seems to be more likely for those high class people to go,Resort World Sentosa looks more relaxing.Yea..then walk around the whole places,the bread in breadtalk was so cute,gt many patterns lik dice,mahjong and etc...lol.Juz nw gt one lady call my home number to look for my dad,i was lik..
she: hello,is ur dad C__K__A__?
me: yah,may i noe who r u?
she: i am grace,is ur dad in?
me: why do u look for him?
she: erm..can u ask ur dad to listen the phone?
me: u gt wat thing?
she: erm..ur dad not around uh?
me: yah,why do u look for him?who r u?
she: i am grace,then is ur mum around?
me: yah,i noe u r grace,i mean u look for them for wat purpose?
she: i talk to ur dad last wk,ur dad ask me to remind him sumthing,
me: u sure?
she: yah.
me: *wth,still yah(tinking)* he passed away.
she: orh ohh...icx,then who do i speak to last wk the guy?
me: wat number u call?
she: 6******* (my home number)
me: *hw i noe(tinking)* oh,then u gt wat thing?
she: oh,nth..i juz wan to ask whether ur dad or mum wanna rent out any rm or blablabla...
me: no.
she: oh,okie..nvm,thks..bye.
me: bye -.-"
is she speaking the truth?LOL,i was lik,wth?INTERESTING,dad..did u speak to her last wk?LOL -.-.Alrite,stop here.Time to waked up.Hahas (;

2010-05-05T00:41:00.001+08:00

I juz finished watching one 2hrs movie wif my mum,bro,sis and bro's friends.Before watching,i am nt interested to watch tis movie at all..cos i dun even noe wat tis movie is abt,bt...after watching,i find tis movie is great..the movie is "葉问2",it shows abt chinese martial art (yong chun quan),and some meaning tat the movie is expressing bt i dunno hw to put them into words,i rmbed one line the china man named 葉问 said:"人的地位有高低之分，可是人的人格不该有贵贱之名",if i am nt wrong,tis shld be the line,i am nt very clear abt the meaning bt i can understand abit wat tis line means,and at the end of the movie,then i noe tat so 葉问 is actually 李小龙 master,before tat i dun even noe,lol.The end of the show oso gt show their picts,thr are really alots of real life history tat are more worth for us to noe than watching those unreality fairy tales.Watching those history let me realise tat our ancestor has done many things to let us hav wat we hav nw,a kinda peaceful life..becos they has gone through those life tat are more tough,more worst than wat we leading nw.Bt nt many ppl would treasure tis peaceful in life.Treasure wat we hav around us,treature wat our ancestor left for us.LOL..above are all my thoughts =X,i am tired nw..off to bed (;

2010-04-23T12:03:00.000+08:00

Late in the nite nw,thr's one feeling tat i can't explain,whether it's bored,tired,unhappy,shag,worried,frustrated,or i guess...it's confuse,i feel lost...isit every human will hav the day which they feel lost?Although i keep telling myself it will be a chance bt i can't guarantee to myself tat it would really make a chance.I need confidence to convince myself,i need encourage nt pressure,when ppl mention..i feel the pressure,i convince to myself tat i muz really do it and nt disappoint anybody,hw...haven started and here is all my bullshit thoughts,i shldn't hav all these bullshit nw,no matter wat...once step forward,thr's no more backward for me.I really hope tat day arrived soon.

2010-04-12T08:50:00.004+08:00

On 10 apr,bro b'dae..morning we went st91 hav breakfast then jie went to curl her hair,mum,bro and me went home first,went jie was back,she bought a cake for bro,then awhile lata,we cut the cake and giv bro the present.Photo was taken,happy birthday kor (;.

On 11 apr,it's my b'dae,morning mum cook mee sua and egg for sis and me,then noon went out wif xiao jiu and his family tgt wif mum..went vivocity food republic to hav lunch,shop around thr and went to a temple at tanjong pagar,and then back home,at home watch show and went to jp at evening for dinner,bro treat swensen (;,then jie went to buy famous amos wif cute bear box for me and while we gg home,forget to take the things we buy,left it at swensen,so bro and me went back to take,and went home...jie take out the cake for me,then we celebrate (;,thks mum,bro and sis for the celebration (;.

2010-03-27T23:28:00.000+08:00

Hw many slacking days i left?I oso dunno xD.Bt...i used up all my time to watch show,and it was really interesting,the more show i watch,the more emotional stirring i hav,it was a kinda feeling i can't explain out,and at tis time,hw i wish tat my brain can hav a memory card tat can stored all those things inside,so as i needed it,i can use it.It was tomb sweeping festival,tis morning went to dad tomb,after tat went to burn incense paper and went to boon lay eat,after tat went to buy some flower and back to dad tomb again to change the flower,then...went home,continue my show,lol...suppose to went grandma hse to slp tonite as tomoro gg malaysia to sweep grandpa and great-grandpa and great-grandma tomb,bt i choose to slp at home cos i can continue watch my show as well as i prefer slping at home (;.So nw,mum and sis was at grandma hse,bro and me was at home,tomoro gonna waked up early,slping soon..nite (;

2010-03-17T21:25:00.000+08:00

Kaoz...very qigek,tis is the 3rd time the money juz fly away infront of me.Wth -.-.SUPER SADDED larHx =(.Forget it,no fate...lol.Okie,be more optimistic (;,mon-fri i am lock at home,after tis sat i guess i hav to wait for another 2-3 wks then gt free time again,cos sweep tomb,sis 21st b'dae and so so so is all crushed tgt,LOL...tis few days acc mum here and thr,cos mum's aunt came to my hse frm malaysia to stay for 3 days 2 nites,rare guest..so mum keep them acc and i am so bored cos mum ps me -.-.So i watched one show frm miotv,it's an old show,i watch before when i was young,hahas...while watching,thr was abit feeling of reminisce,lol..so miss those young time,and i am old nw =X.Yea..i am,so i shldn't be tinking of those daydrming things lerHx,shld start to tink of honorable things.Lik seagulls,fly high and see far (:

2010-03-11T15:35:00.000+08:00

Temper is getting bad to worst,i hav to control.I dun wan to force myself control,wanna use another way to make myself feel better.em diputs

2010-02-27T23:46:00.003+08:00

Sat today,wk by wk..passes really fast,14 mins lata gg to be last day of cny.Hope tis yr everything was fine (;.Hm...my fav grp singer was bbt frm taiwan,i lik their songs and their dance,especially the way they act,and today..jie intro me another grp of singer,they are korean "2pm",firstly show me a video tat they are playing games and,they looked cute,bt didn't get addicted by them in first sight,juz thought they was funny,while nite...jie show me another video and told me their story,and i get addicted by them,lol...they are actually a band since 2007 if i'm nt wrong,bt due to sumthing happened,the leader of the grp leave them at 2009 cos of some "extra" ppl doing "extra" thingy,it was kinda sad.They are somehw lik bbt,a grp of guys,tgt...frm strangers to friends,friends to brothers,and nw..becos of tat things happened,the leader of tis grp was sent back to his country(US).And the grp are left wif 6 members nw,though i am nt really a fan of them as i juz known tis grp today,bt...i guess their fans muz be reallly disappointed and sad tat such things actually happened,it's quite unfair cos things was created on 2005 bt it was 2009 when it was found,5 yrs apart..bt thr are juz some "red eyes" ppl who are so cruel to created such things,so nw...besides bbt,i oso lik the band 2pm..hahas.

2010-02-21T20:55:00.000+08:00

Today shld be gg out wif uncles they all to temple bt it was too early..around 7am sumthing mum started to waked me up,bt i was too tired so i ignore and ended up i nv go xD.So stay at home till noon,receive call frm uncle,saying grandma(father side) is hospitalized due to breathing difficulties and headache.So bro,sis and me train down to SGH to visit her.She looks quite fine already,bt i heard the gaga say tat ytd,she can't drink and can bite,tat's why they sent her to hospital.Half of her heart was gd bt another half was weak,tat's wat the gaga told us too.Hope grandma recover soon.Cos we over thr she can't get into slp,so we went off to hav our dinner,we went vivocity,eat,then train home.Funny things around thr made by bro and sis,LOL.

2010-02-19T17:59:00.000+08:00

I hav gotten my result,expected..and i guess it's consider smoothly to wat i am planning?Bt...i am abit afraid tat i am unable to do it,cos it's nt a small sum of money.Well...even if i am able to do it,isit really useful for my future?I am nt sure,bt juz gonna try hard..yea,if i intend to start,i muz keep gg on even if thr is no resting time,so nw...i juz spend more time to rest,rest as much as i could,independent,confident,motivation,i am craving for it nw,i need it.

2010-02-09T21:03:00.000+08:00

Few days didn't blog,cause been doing same things so oso dunno wat to blog.Anw..juz to update wat's gg on these few days,staying at home,went out wif mum,so and so...mum bought a mp3 for me,lik it (;.The drama been watching is black&white bt finish watching lerHx,nw catching "dan qin ma ma",kinda nice.Cny coming,everything buy lerHx,juz waiting for the day bt i tink..nth to feel excited oso bah,anw..my family already lack of one person,nt completed already so new yr eve oso becoming quite meaningless.Bt...if thr's sumthing fun,still gg to enjoy.Cause life is gotta enjoy,strive and die.LOL..lame,alrite..posting some picts (;

cute isn't it?LOL

2010-01-25T21:59:00.003+08:00

Sat went malaysia wif mum for relative wedding dinner,was bored thr as i noe none of them.Sun went out wif xiao jiu and his family to tiong bahru plaza,grandma buy new yr clothes,xiao jiu mu oso bought some,after tat shop awhile and went home,nite hav dinner wif family at 651 coffee shop.Today,morning waked by mum as she say she gg grandma hse,after she came back,we went giant at pm,then mum bought ben&jerry for me (;.Reach home surf net and start cleaning rm,wow...very dirty sia =X.Bt..it's clean nw bah,hahas.Was so bored,tomoro gg for an interview,i hope history dun repeat uh,hm...yea,anw...happy b'dae to junetai and everyone whom feel hurt,get well soon (;.

2010-01-15T21:53:00.009+08:00

I am planning,yea..i am.Bt...i hope it's nt a wrong decision,it's nt a bad idea.I guess,i am nt wrong..am i rite?Go for it,do it.I can.

I tink alot,really alot.
And i realised..it does exist before,bt..it's gone.

2010-01-06T23:04:00.000+08:00

I am having holiday,i am suppose to work bt i can't find any pt job,see all ite friends are planning ahead for their future,and wat am i doing?I dun even noe wat course,wat sch am i gg for,i dun even hav a plan ahead,i really wanna strive sumthing out,i dunno am i lazy or am i lack of confident.One plan ahead,i wanna make it possible,hw am i gg to start it?Mum been pouring cold water,bt...i keep telling myself,if my plan really appear to be real,i will hav to face alot person saying those words more sarcastic than wat mum saying,so...i hav to learn hw to overcome.Bt...i damn dislik myself for saying nt doing,i wan to BUCK UP BUCK UP BUCK UP!

2010-01-01T23:18:00.001+08:00

Happy New Year 2010 (;.New year...another one yr passed,went to countdown ytd,enjoyed.Wth...my leg is pain =/,becos of the high heel shoe,kns...LOL.Forget it,today is xiao jiu b'dae,noon went out wif xiao jiu family tgt wif mum,went tongle for lunch,was full.Hahas,then after tat went gekpoh,grandma cut hair,and back home after tat,abt 5pm went grandma hse,slack thr till 6pm sumthing and went jp wif xiao jiu mu and mum to buy kfc,pizza to celebrate xiao jiu b'dae,after eaten,watch tv and after tat cut cake.Eat and slack..lol,till 10pm sumthing went home and blog,tat's all...gdnite (;

2009-12-27T19:32:00.010+08:00

Getting tired.Currently been watching Chinese paladin 3,yea..i hav watched Chinese paladin 1,bt...it seems thr are no Chinese paladin 2,then i saw bro watching Chinese paladin 3 mths ago if i am nt wrong,bt i am nt interested so didn't watch.Then suddenly miotv gt the show,saw mum watching,lol...then i watch tgt wif her and i am being attracted.LOL...bt i onli watched last half of the epi,so nw start watching back the first half epi.Ytd mum finish watching the last epi,and we watch tgt...my gosh,it was really damn sad,i lik watching tis kind of show,cos in reality world,who will really go and care abt ur love ones in the critical juncture.No true,onli fake.This show nv shown a very gd ending for those main characters,bt at least in the end,they get peace,frm tis show...i hav learned something,and..if i can tink lik them,hw great will it be.Bt...tat's juz a show,cos if i tink lik them,doesn't mean i can be lik them,cos i am living in the diff world as them,no ppl around me are lik ppl around them,i can't really use words to express out wat i tinking,maybe i am a weird one i guess. xD

虽然很努力, 练习着忘记,
我的心却还没答应可以,
放弃了你。
说好要忘记，偏偏又想起。

2009-12-24T14:50:00.003+08:00

Merry christmas (;.Yea...today was christmas eve,mum b'dae too.Happy b'dae mum =D.Went to jp tgt wif mum,cos i wanna buy christmas presents (;,and went to eat,i treated mum...and i saw one jacket at RED2,i long for it...cos i buy the 3/4 jean and wanna match wif tis kind of jacket,bt it was ex.,mum ask me try it,and...she buy it for me,thks mum (;...muacks,LOL.Shld i leave it till cny?Hahas..see hw first bah,hm...then bro came back frm work,cos today he work half day onli..so he came find us at jp,then we walk to the 24 hrs fairprice tat area,and noe wat?Thr are similar jacket thr,and it onli cost $26 -.-",bt forget it,already bought lerHx..lol,i lik it anw (;.Hope to enjoy tis few days,still looking for job,dearest and me gg to find again soon,hope to find one..i am bankrupt xD.Hahas,okies...end here,take care all.

continue~

Celebrated at grandma hse,aunt order turkey and cake and we order pizza and kfc (;.Thks cousin for the BBT,lik it (;..kor and jie bought me a big dolphin for christmas,thks alot (;..happy,received soooooo many presents tis mth,hahas =).Tomoro shld be gg 2nd aunt (father side) hse,stay thr for 2 days 1 nite bah,hope will hav fun...and it's seriously enjoying (;.Happy (;

2009-12-21T20:45:00.002+08:00

Today went jp wif mum,finally (;.As..i bought one 3/4 jean on sat and realise the pocket gt one hole,so mum acc me go change it today,treated mum "zhou's kitchen" as our lunch,i cook dinner today for my family (;,although nt very well done,i will do it better again,lol...many many things happen,i hav no idea wat shld be done,families,friendship,and tat so called "relationship" tat does nt exist,why...onli a few of them noe,i tink i dun hav to test anymore bah,it's clear enough after today,wat the suay luck i hav today,my gosh...damn unlucky can?Fcuking crazy..why still contact me?Cheating feeling is fun?Let's wait and see.I am so stupid,still wanna giv u chance,thought it's misunderstanding,it's nt,i am sure tis time.

Lame!
Childish!
STUPID!!!

2009-12-18T09:56:00.001+08:00

New day new day...lol,watching a new show intro by boon,thks to him..tat's a funny show and by watching tat show it made my day (;,the show is "hi,my sweetheart",bt...it's a new show so it onli come out once a wk and i am waiting for the next epi.Grandma discharged today...so mum gt to go tgt wif them to fetch her home,tat means lata gt to take care baby myself again xD,i am still finding job -.-,bt...still waiting for the time to find job xD.I wan ear peace......................so pls,stop those nonsense -.-".

Wat happen to me?
I actually feel sad for tat.
Wat happen to u?
Why call me after drunk?

2009-12-15T15:07:00.004+08:00

Ytd finally get to go out,meet wif dearest to find job tgt,hope in the end we can work xD.Meet wif another two sisters around 6pm,lol...funniest part,dearest get in the train,the door close and i am still outside,so ps..LOL.Then meet esther at clementi and ting at batok then we walk to kopitiam around thr and hav zi cha,lol...walk to csc for pool after tat,enjoy the day wif sisters,reach home 10pm plus,hope next time no matter wat happen in future,we can rmb wat sis is for.Quarrel is hard to avoid bt after quarrel shld gain a understand for each others and nt hatred (;.Today staying at home taking care the cutie,taken some photos wif her and i am bored -.-,tonite...grandma will be having a surgery,hope everything went fine.Bro coming back soon...miss him and his PRESENT!LOL..bt wonder wat he will buy O.o.Hahas..okie,shall end here (;.

U are a game to me nw.
A game,and i will rmb.

2009-12-10T15:44:00.002+08:00

I lik u.
I miss u.
I wan u.
I hate u.
I dunno u.

Do u really mean wat u say?
Frm which angle?

Can't feel.
No fate.
Tat's it.

Cousin hamster.Cute?

2009-12-06T21:37:00.006+08:00

Yea...continuously updated my blog (;.Today went to shopping wif jie,lol...a lazy person lik her willing to go out wif me becos she wan to go marina see whr is marina mandarin hotel as her colleague invited her to her wedding at the place.So i acc her..we go in and out of our hse 3 times and finally can take the train -.-.Reached cityhall,went xingwang to eat,after tat we went to marina square to find the place and found lerHx we went to walk walk,buy a watch for myself and jie buy one too,bt diff design.LOL...went to catch doll bt caught nth xD.Went to tcc to chill...jie treat,hahas...then after tat abt 5pm sumthing take train,get down at boon lay and went jp,jie go buy a card or sumthing for game stuff tat cost her $50 plus,piang...waste money,bt her money,wat can i say =.=.She buy fake eye lashed for me and herself,hahas...okie..then walk to grandma hse,mum and bro over thr,juz reach onli mum say wanna go home,so we went home,mum is so xinku,need to take care of grandma...haix,bt i cannot acc her tonite cos tomoro gt to go for btt,she so xinku take care of grandma,bt wat she get back is grandma complaining and fake story saying it's mum cause her fall.I understand grandma already old and maybe having some depression or watever bt i noe hw tough it is to take care of her,onli half day make me tired till lik wat,mum taking care her so long,nite still cannot slp properly,i hope grandma recover soon,so mum dun need to be so xinku lerHx.

2009-12-04T10:01:00.003+08:00

By nw...i am still in a very moody situation,after tat nite everything.And yea,i am nt gg to shanghai anymore,due to the date was too near,so the plane ticket cannot change name anymore.These two days,staying at home helping mum to take care of the baby as mum gt to take care of grandma,so i didn't hav the time or rather say mood to study for btt.Mum is the one taking care of grandma day and nite,staying at grandma hse and morning still hav to rush home to carry baby.Wth isit?Is it fair?Ytd nobody come down to take care of grandma and let my mum rest,till the evening,wat if i was still schling?Mum dun need to rest?She did nt slp the nite before,cos grandma can't slp due to the pain,anybody care?Yet all are staying at home shake leg?Wat i was disappoint abt is mum hav been taking care of grandma so much,yet she put the blame on mum saying tat mum is the cause of her falling down,bt tat's nt true,i heard the story saying by aunt tat it was becos she get down the car and walk by herself while cousin,aunt and mum didn't get to notice and she fell,3 ppls were thr,why muz be mum onli the one being blame?Unfair,yet...everything can push to a death person nw,my dad.I dun wanna say wat isit,bt conscience clear,nth to afraid.Shall end here,i am tired.

2009-11-30T18:56:00.000+08:00

Ytd was tired due to clubbing on sat,slp on noon...waked,surf net..went to da jiu hse to eat steamboat for dinner,they said grandma(mum side) suffer frm depression..true?Check frm the site and see the symptoms of depression,almost 70% fit with the symptoms,i guess so?Well...didn't noe wat to do,bt mum said juz keep her acc and stop her frm wild imagination.Hm...xiao jiu mu was back frm penang,bought a shirt and chocolate for us,thks (;.Exam in 2 days time,still nt prepared -.-,haix..why am i soooooo lazy?Hope i can study as soon as possible.LOL

2009-11-26T18:51:00.001+08:00

It was consider last day of sch today,cos after today..we will onli return back to sch for exam on wed and wait for the next step we choose.I dunno wat will it be,bt..i onli noe after exam will be busy abt driving thingy and working bah.Been watching a taiwan drama,"bump off lover,ai sha 17",story quite similar to "mars",bt...tis drama is more complicated,interesting.Human looks strong..bt looks clearly,u will see hw fragile human is.

2009-11-20T20:54:00.001+08:00

I am sososo bored nw,wat to do?I feel my life hav nth better to do,seriously...wat can i do?I hav to make decision again,continue my studies or working?Do i hav a choice at the end of the day?I dunno,i am getting lazier,hw?I am nt a child anymore,soon to be an adult,tinking the past and yea,i can onli tink and nt go back,i can onli move on,hw to move on,who giv me the motivation?Or i muz still count myself?Again,why everytime myself?Why i can't met sumone who can giv me a hand and bring me along?Be it a friend or an elder,juz a person...teach me a better way,i dun wanna make wrong decision and waste my time again.

2009-11-17T19:18:00.000+08:00

I hav gt nth much to blog abt,the 2 wks revision started today...given 2 worksheets,dec06 and mar07,lol...after seeing the paper,started to worried for my exam result lerHx xD.Whole day moody.Although i noe dying is part of life bt i dun get it why human muz die,and i dun understand why is thr angel and devil.To make life interesting?Nah..i dun feel so,then those human met devil is really so poor thing,and met angel is lucky.LOL...okies,i noe i shld stop angel and devil...hahas,my headache hav been few wks,still haven recover.

Living is for u to enjoy ur life.
As long as u live before,dying is nth.
If u nv really enjoy ur life,live for another 100yrs is onli a waste of ur life.

2009-11-13T19:08:00.001+08:00

Erm..yea,finally it's coming to the end.Left 2 more wks to final exam,and dunno wat will be my next step...wat to do after tat?I dunno.Ytd esther college came to our college east,and we meet tgt,then after slacking at cafe 1 wait for the rain to stop lerHx,we walk to expo and at expo walk awhile then me and dearest train home.Today went to sch and after taking class test 2 then bus to tamp wif friends and i train home,Evani giv each person a biscuit...lol,and say it's a little present for our hardwork these yrs,hahas...will be having class chalet,bt everything is nt confirm yet,so hope it will be a fun one?I guess it wun be held so early bah.Juz went to enroll for driving at bbdc wif my sisters,hm...gotta learn new things,bt quite afraid...cos i am nt really interested,lol...interesting uh xD.Can't really imagine me driving a car?Hahas..bro asked me why dun take manual,lol..then after he explain to me abt manual things,i was...heng uh,i nv choose manual,cos it's complicated,LOL..bt actually really wanna compare,i tink manual is really better larHx,bt i am lazy to learn so i guess auto suit me better bah.Hm..nth much to blog lerHx,the weather is cold~,hahas...byebye.

2009-11-06T15:45:00.012+08:00

Wat a day today..hahas,morning i am so suay,and noon i feel lucky?Waked up and prepared to go sch bt nisha call and say her eye swollen,kyna nt feeling well?So they nt gg,i dunno shld i go anot so i call niki and ask her whether she gg,and she gg so i went...reach sch,nth to do,slack...doing cisco feedback and nth to do lerHx,mr lincoln asked me abt ytd phase test and yea..i pass (;,thks to him..keep giving hints tat which one will come out,hahas...so after tat,surf facebook,tagged,and blog...nth else to do,till 11am and dismiss.Take bus and saw dearest wif her friends,she came toward and we chat,bus came lerHx,went in bus wif niki and niki ask me,me and dearest related anot,i told her we r cousin,then after i went to take train,i wanna text dearest tell her abt tat and i text to wrong person,go text to niki,haix,so ps larHx xD.Then i call and told dearest,she laugh at me,LOL.No choice,wat been done hav been done.Hm...then reach home,do my cisco test,do the final one until half and accidentally click restart,then hang,wa lau...then i dun wan do liao,went jp to hav lunch wif mum and grandma...after lunch went ntuc buy things and went posb update bank book,wow...surprise,hahas....(;.After update bank book lerHx,train home...guess wat?After so long...abt 1 yr and 3mths bah,i saw him today,at pioneer mrt station while i walking wif grandma gg to tap out,he tap in.Lucky or unlucky?Ppl who understand me shld noe,hahas...reach home,do my cisco final test,lucky still can do,lol...end here (;

First time,nt looking back.
Bt...heart still will pump fast.
Why?Is thr still feeling inside?
The onli person who can make me feel tis way,
is u...onli u,to others,i onli can feel blush.

2009-10-31T00:25:00.000+08:00

Yea..sch stress is coming up,phase test next thurs and lots of notes to study for coming up exam,and i am nt prepared at all...working day left 2 days as i hav completed 1 day today (;.Quite happy bt oso quite unhappy,cos no job mean no money to earn lerHx,LOL..bt i still quit as cannot take it and the boss is changing anw?Hahas...so after two more days,will be concentrating on my studies,sick for few days lerHx,sore throat,headache and flu...bt nobody care me,sadded xD.Nvm,i care myself...hahas.Bt nw my head is lik bursting soon,very very pain...slp slp slp and nt enough,my gosh...go sch oso can't concentrate on wat lecturer teach,listen lerHx and forget.=x Recover soon..lol,end here (;

2009-10-20T00:35:00.005+08:00

Tis morning actually wanna skip lesson bt nv cos thought teacher giving hints for test again bt at last didn't -.-.So after sch...went tamp to meet up mum and bro,sis came awhile lata..cos she went her ite take her cert,after tat went to tamp mall and eat western food,mum treat (;.Mum ask me go do my "N" lvl cert oso,bt i refuse cos i was so tired and wanna go home rest as working lata on,bt at last in train mum insist to make it today cos still gt time,so we went MOE to make the cert,and yea...i still miss the old one =x.While taking train back,me and sis persuade mum to go jp hav dessert first,at the first place..mum dun wan,bt reach jp she oso get down while we pull her,hahas =P.Went home after dessert,bath and surf net awhile then went for work,today was tiring xD.Tink nt gg sch for tomoro lesson,i still haven study for my test =x,so yea..update till here (;

2009-10-15T19:57:00.002+08:00

Sch restarted tis wk..mon after sch went home and rest awhile after tat went to work.The next day was so tired,kyna didn't come sch for these several days,tues...do labsheet and went for break,nisha and me was tired so we didn't went for theory lesson,acc her to tamp and train home.Wed...tired too,after practical lesson went to cafe 1,wait for them to finish eating and i was chatting wif ting on phone,lol..she was sick,recover soon sis..(;,hm..then after tat skip theory lesson and went home too,today...as usual meet wif nisha and went to sch..whole day practical lesson,gt one surprise practical test..luckily my friend taught me,as i hav forgotten hw to done it xD.After lesson train home,walking to take bus to tanah merah and saw boon,and actually taking train tgt wif him bt nisha rushing home so we take the same train bt diff cabin,LOL.Tomoro nisha and niki nt coming sch due to deepavali preparation,so gg sch tgt wif kyna and after sch gotta go for work again.Tired...hope tomoro wun be a tough one xD.

2009-10-06T21:45:00.001+08:00

Yea..here to update again (;.Nth much..cos having sch holiday..everyday is still the same,sch gonna reopen.Sian uh!!LOL.Ytd..esther came my hse wif a friend of hers,then yea..stay at my hse use my com and chatted,abt 6pm sumthing after our dinner,went to jp..meet ting,sadded dearest went out wif her parents so she is nt meeting us,then we walked at jp..having fun,bt...sumthing happen,an idiot fooled us.Then okie..tat idiot dun hav enough qualification to affect our mood..so we continue our shopping,went to see the dinosaur roadshow,we oso planned to went JB tgt..bt i guess tis plan gonna postpone or either cancel..lol,sadded xD.Hm...always dun hav enough slp,headache for few days,didn't work for tis holiday,cos can't find..bt maybe start work soon,depend?Hope it wun be hard for me.Hahas..okies,stop here,bye (;

2009-09-21T21:55:00.000+08:00

Today went out wif uncle family,aunts & cousins frm malaysia,mum and sis..bro went out wif his friend.Went bukit panjang for breakfast+lunch and after tat...uncle bring us to eastcoast park to ride bicycle (;.Enjoying bt it rains -.-,so after two rounds of eastcoast park,we return the bike and hide at the shelter waiting for the rain to stop,went mac to find grandma,mum and aunts and hav some fries and ice-cream too,and idiot i kana chilli on my shirt,LOL.Tired xD,after tat..back to uncle hse and walk back home wif mum and sis..stay at home surf net till nw.Gg to slp,nite xD

2009-09-18T12:09:00.001+08:00

Finally sch holiday (;.Today no sch cos ytd already done everything tat suppose to done,lol...bt was bored,hm..ytd,lesson dismiss at 4pm sumthing bt waited for dearest bl meeting till 6pm sumthing and walked to simei take trained,back home 8pm,eat and surf net till 11pm sumthing and slp,morning went st91 wif mum,auntie,grandma..after breakfast grandma wanna go salon..i pei her till she is done and mum go home first,tired uh..LOL,hm...and i need money xD,no money lerHx..hahas.Okie,blog till here,bye (;

Lik an idiot,
wat am i tinking tat time?

2009-09-13T19:25:00.007+08:00

Abt noon 12pm..mum,bro,sis and me went out wif uncle and his family.Went woodland causeway point,hav seoul garden for lunch...eat till 2.30pm sumthing,full..hahas...then we walk around in causeway point,watch ppl play basketball competition.After tat waited for uncle come drive us cos he went to his factory awhile,he come lerHx,around 3pm sumthing,drive us home...my leg was pain bodoh xD,walk for three day,LOL..okie,shall end here..posted pict,gt one look carefully,gt caterpillars,hahas..

2009-09-07T16:49:00.001+08:00

Meet wif kyna in the morning and went to sch,and we were both tired,slp in the train till reach simei,walk to sch...on the way he msg,nth to talk.So end msg very fast.Reached sch..kyna went find her friend first,so i went to class..put bag and listen to teacher teach.Kyna came,com spoil bodoh,change com -.-,moody larHx..sian,done the lab 2 and dismiss,lesson ends at 11.30am,kyna wanna print sumthing so went mrc wif her bt closed,go seng city see can print anot bt cannot,so at last went library,abt 12pm plus then she's done and we take bus to tanah merah and trained home.Reach home,1pm plus..eat cheesecake made by mum and tired,went to slp,waked up...headache-.-.Saw msg,then msg msg..oso awhile,bored xD.Haix..really very sian.Shldn't hav find trouble myself,was tinking am i making wrong decision?Bt forget it,walk one step see one step,lol.Blog till here..everything will be fine,as long as i can be lik hw i was past few mths.

2009-09-01T18:39:00.002+08:00

It's teacher's day,lol..so no sch today,morning mum voice waked me up -.-.Cos sis was late for work,and i am having headache,thought can slp well,bt..tired xD.Baby came and mum ask me to help baby change diaper and feed her milk -.-.And i slp back again after tat,waked up...pray dad and ah gong for 7th month stuff.Spend my time today for slping and surfing net.Chatted wif esther at msn and yea..thr's a guy asked me tis ques,u lik raining day?And me and esther was laughing wif tis jk,hahas.Anw..hope she was fine,okie?Tomoro gonna go to sch lerHx,new subject started lerHx.Lol...okie,shall blog till here.

Is my decision rite tis time?
I dun wish to repeat the same mistake.

2009-08-23T11:36:00.004+08:00

Gonna blog abt ytd..went out wif esther and ting,meet ting at boon lay and esther at je,toward orchard...inside the train gt one lady..shouting and scolding vulgarities,and finally she get down at outram,reach orchard,went cineleisure to hav lunch at xing wang,was very hungry...LOL,esther and me order same food,ting nt tat hungry as she ate lerHx,so onli order side dishes,then we started playing UNO while waiting for foods to be served.After bill,we went to taka and walk walk,esther find her bf,and she treated us cupcake,lol..thks esther (;.Erm..then they acc me to shaw hse take my thing and we went ION walk walk till 8pm sumthing and called dearest babe,meeting her (;..train to batok as esther wanna change her clothes and cab to ting hse and my hse...esther acc me home and back to dearest babe hse,meeted jun xian too...he at jp buying movie tickets wif his friends,meeted playground,his friends came too..didn't talk much and he went off wif his friend to catch the movie,sisters planned to went fairprice,so we went...hav abit fun thr and walk around the jp without any shop open frm 11pm-1am,as thr was heavy rain too,so cannot go back..stay thr wait,he msg me after his movie to ask whr r we,then he and his friends was juz behind us,lol..then they slack wif us,we slack at babe void deck till 4am sumthing and back to dearest babe hse slp.A auntie thr was finding her cat since the time we slack till 4am xD.Slp for 2 hrs and waked,walk around in babe rm and call back home awhile,mum ask me to slp until they waked,and yea..i went back slp again,waked at 9am sumthing and walked home (;

2009-08-16T22:18:00.001+08:00

Ytd..went out wif sisters to cineleisure to watch Orphan,firstly..meet wif jolyn,tgt bring brandon back home,and yea..walk to lakeside mrt station,meet jolyn friend,then meet esther at je and went bugis,esther buy her things and we meet crystal at dhoby,hav our lunch and buy movie ticket,and it was 6.35pm show,walk around orchard till the time and meet wif esther bf then went in to watch the movie,erm...nt so nice bt okie okie,hahas..then after tat they acc me wanna go take the things my mum asked me to,bt..it was close,ps uh mum..lied to u =x,anw..u found out,lol...then we went xing wang eat and play cards thr,kinda fun,then went off and realised it was already late,rush for the train and home at 12am. Today is the day dad passed away one yr.It's really fast,can't imagine it's already one yr.And last nite,i was out wif my sisters till midnite 12am,supposed to be very tired after shopping for a day,instead of slping lik a pig,i can't get into slp,been sitting at the bed for 1hr and mum waked,then chat wif her awhile she slp back,went to get my phone and listen to song frm 2am - 5am,during the period of time,those memories wif dad hav been appearing in my mind,was so happy bt become so sad memories,till 5am i tried to slp and nap until 7am,waked and started to do those stuff for dad 1yr..miss u dad,hope u get everything and hope u miss us too (;

2009-08-05T22:18:00.001+08:00

As usual meet kyna and nisha and take train,in the train..when nisha is still nt inside,i hav asked kyna abt hw was it abt ytd she talk to raymond and the idiot lecturer,she said raymond was obviously helping lecturer,okie..then nvm,then she told me blablabla and i ans her back,i said tat i hav said early it's no point argue wif a lecturer,onli we lose out in the end onli,and obviously the lecturer is siding on "her",then she suddenly kpkb me -.-,starting she was juz saying "u all ytd quiet,everything oso dun wan say,all i say alone,nw say all tis oso no use..." using a very irritating voice,then at last she keep repeating lik as if it's my fault for nt speaking up?Damn..then i was lik getting irritated and stop talking to her,pls...i didn't noe wat happen ytd,seriously..tis matter me and nisha is nt suppose to be involved cos of u and our grp is lik being blacklisted by all the lecturers,okie..then nvm,tis things was solve and over,after tat..we reached sch,nisha open the powerpoint slides and idiot lecturer saw,went toward and said something to nisha,then saying one of the item dun need put inside,so i heard and i was deleting it too while i saw nisha was deleting it,so she dun hav to send me a new copy,bt she suddenly SHOUTED at me say "yiling,can u pls close it,one person do will do"..wtf?Okie,i understand hw u feel when u get irritated by someone bt pls,get tis clear,i am nt a machine for u guys to vend ur anger on me,and after today..tis sch really hav nth tat worth for me to miss and tink of if i grad,suck lecturers thr,suck classmates thr and suck sect head thr.Seriously,i dun get why am i involve in tis situation when i hav done nth,is it wrong by keeping silent too?Quiet mean easy to bully?I get why kyna so angry is the morning as she oso told me the idiot lecturer compare me wif her,saying i wun talk back,GET TIS CLEAR!IT'S NT I WUN TALK BACK,IT'S JUZ I DUN WANNA SAY MUCH!IT'S REAL CHILDISH!I juz wanna get watever cert i shld get and leave tis sch asap since in tis sch thr's nth for me to tink of.=/

2009-08-01T10:03:00.000+08:00

Nowsaday sch having alot prob..and was getting so frustrated as i am nt feeling well and those unwanted prob keep coming on and on...bt after ytd,i hope it's solved,stop those prob -.-,as a grp i juz hope we can done wat we hav to done and present well at the end of the day and get a gd grades tgt,tat's all.After sch went to meet esther,cos she wan me pei her go interview,at orchard..so rush home change clothes and went out,meet her at je,and we train down to orchard..went to eat first as i was damn hungry,lol..we hav mac,after tat we walk around orchard,esther lazy plus dunno whr the interview place so in the end she nv go,hahas..wanna pierce ear bt too ex compare to outside so we nv pierce,went taka and we bought one cup,so cute..gt light one,LOL.Take some photos and we train home,esther came my hse awhile,say is wanna see those photos i take in taiwan bt in the end she was watching tv all the while..9pm - 10pm show and 10pm to 11pm show..and we oso gt webcam wif dearest babe jolyn,taken some webcam photo bt nt nice so nt posting out,lol...then send esther to pioneer mrt,and she train home...yea,tat's all..byebye (;

2009-07-27T16:01:00.001+08:00

I didn't went sch today,cos was sick..lik gt H1N1 =x,i gt flu,headache,bodyache and abit coughing,sore throat okie lerHx bt no voice...okie,i can explain my sickness,headache and flu becos i ton tat nite and sit at the seaside,bodyache due to i run tat day,coughing and sore throat i tink shld be sis pass to me =x,lol..nw headache very pain uh,no matter hw much i slp still nt enough xD,i was wondering hw my dad can tahan when he drive midnite taxi tat time?He is working and i am playing,playing already takes half of my life,he work as taxi driver still hav to use more energy to concentrate,thks dad..u are really a gd husband and a great dad.(;

I loves my family so much.

2009-07-19T11:11:00.002+08:00

Here to update again,tis few days went hospital to visit cousin,i say before i wun step into tat idiot hospital ever again when dad passed away,bt things are really nt for u to expect and choose,somtimes..u dun hav a choice for sumthing.These two days dunno why,i really dun feel happy..wanna laugh and smile and talk bt sumthing..sumthing is holding me back.I dunno wat isit,i dunno is i too sensitive or wat,i feel tat i am always the one who get scolding even if it's nt my fault,juz lik juz nw..mum wanna go out wif uncle,bt sis and bro always said they dun wanna go even if mum wan them to follow,then i went in room and i juz say sumthing lik saying them idiot always dun wanna go and sis use her leg to kick me,then mum scold me,i didn't say wrong wat,why am i the one being scolded?I really miss when dad is around,cos when mum scold,he will help me,he will noe who rite who wrong,mum wun,she doted on me sumtimes bt compare to bro and sis,i feel she doted on them more.Life..is getting bored.I wan a family wif my dad,my mum,my bro,my sis and me.

2009-07-11T10:13:00.004+08:00

Hahas..finally it's sat,hm..tis term sch table is better than last term bt still nt so gd,cos everyday went sch doing same thing at same lab,and it's boring xD.Ytd after sch wanna meet esther for lunch bt she kuku..LOL,at last backout xD.Then i went to jp buy Mr bean for lunch,hahas..then went home.Tis morning went to had mac breakfast,lata gg out wif family (;.Blog till here,bye.

pict taken on sunday when i went johor,bt didn't hav time to upload early (;

continue...

Yea..train to dhoby,gt ah ma,mum,bro and sis..we went to eat sushi buffet and queue for quite long,then finally our turn,went in and eat...till nt even one hr and all of us already very full,so we went to shop,went in heeren and saw Nicholas Zhang,lol...as last time i keep listening his song so dad and mum tink his is my idol and ytd mum ask me to go take photos of him,and i gt take photos of him,hahas..then ah ma more cute,ask me wan she buy his album for me then i go up giv him sign,LOL..bt i nv larHx,so ps..xD.And yea,ppl more and more clowded so we went off, saw gt foodfair so went inside and take a look,buy mango and durian puff and some others food and went to mac and hav a drink.Then eat the durian puff =x.Hahas,yea and train home,me and mum bring ah ma home and then uncle drive us back home.(;

2009-06-27T14:35:00.001+08:00

Yea..here to blog again.Juz saw my result,dunno shld feel happy or sad cos no up and no down,still the same.I hav juz edited a photo and i am glad i hav done it,i dun feel proud tat i hav done it bt i feel happy abt it,though it dun really look real cos i am nt pro bt i hav try my best to make it lik a real pict without any editing.Many things appear in my mind,and i finally noe wat i wan to do bt nw is still nt the time,tat's wat i can say,i wun say wat is it until i hav achieve it.Or maybe wat i wan to do might nt be wat i am doing next time bt at least i noe nw..tat's wat i wan.

2009-06-04T15:24:00.001+08:00

Exam over (;.Bt i can say i am nt confident wif the ques at all...one of the ques,i can get the ans correct derHx..cos the ans is at my mind bt instead of writing tat ans,i write another one..cos i thought it wun be the ans xD,haix...sian,lost tat ques mark,anw..holiday lerHx..bt gt FYP need to prepared.Tis few days gt many idiotic things happened around me...abt the taxi insurance dad bought tat supposed to paid us the money suddenly say dun hav lerHx..wtf?Since last yr we hav been asking abt the money,yet u told us tat u hav confirm everything and juz waiting for the hospital to signature and the money will be send to us,bt nw suddenly say dun hav?R u fooling us or trying to eat our money?Damn...tis amount of money might nt meant anything to u,bt it meant sumthing to us okie!If we nv call u,u nv call to tell us anything abt the money bt nw we call and ask u,u say dun hav lerHx?Better nt let us hav any evidence to fight u back,another thing abt a bus bang into my dad taxi case at last yr june..last yr sep sumone frm accident co. call to said the case is half way,do we still wan to continue,and she clearly said tat we dun hav to pay a single amt if the case lose,bt we will get a few thousand if the case win,bt tis matter hav been drag until tis yr march i called to ask,wtf...the person frm accident co. told me the case win lerHx,dunno waiting for wat signature again -.-,i was been told tis,bt after so long we still receive nth,few days ago..i called accident co. and ask again...the person told me the money already send to taxi co. at apr,ask me to call thr and ask,okie..i call and ask,wtf...instead of giving us the money,nw saying tat the case onli win 60% instead of 80% so we hav to pay them thousand over dollars instead they giving us the $350 tat suppose to pay us.At first say fight win the case gt thousand over dollars,nw become $350 onli nvm,bt nw we hav to pay them thousand over dollars back including the $350 they suppose to giv us?At tis moment,i really hope i noe the law,i hav the ability,the money to sue these fcuking ppl!=/

2009-05-23T20:13:00.000+08:00

Time to blog again (;.Lol..okies,erm...this wk schling hav been doing test,retest and project.Those presentation for tis term was over.So nw is to focus for the coming nwf exam and next term thingy.Life was usually common,lifeskill lecturer show us one show ytd,an eng movie bt i dunno the name,watch till half and the lesson was over,lecturer say shall continue next wk..hahas,was abt long time ago,a country having racist.A great movie...in tis show,it shown out hw fortunate we are to born in tis century.It's a real life story in many yrs ago.And i tink in the end of tis movie,someone solved tis racist prob.Oh yea..xiao jiu bought a new car..it was nice and big,the day the car arrive..xiao jiu drive his family and us one round around boon lay,so nice of him..hahas,shall end here..bye (;

2009-05-10T17:45:00.000+08:00

Celebrated Mother's day for grandma(mother's side) and juz came back..was so full,went je sakura to hav lunch,last yr mother's day we oso bring mum to sakura celebrate,tat time gt dad,mum,bro,sis,me and 3 bro friends...one yr pass..so fast and everything hav changed so much within tis one yr,after dad has passed away,i live in a world tat i dun feel reality at all,LOL..maybe i am in coma,and all tis is drm,if can be lik tat..i rather i am really in coma,and when i waked up everything remain hw it was during the day i born till my age of 16th.Bt i am in reality,maybe tat's so called "life",the life tat make one grown up to become a real adult wif mature tinking.Bt i am still childish anw,so forget abt it,lol..shall post some pict,enjoy (;

Hahas..so sad,kana pull ear =x

2009-05-03T22:25:00.000+08:00

Yesterday,bro wanna celebrate early Mother's day for mum,so we went out in the noon to dhoby ghaut,bro wanna treat mum buffet bt cannot find so walk to orchard and a big big round then at last decide to go cineleisure the suki sushi,reach thr...queueing very long,then mum,bro,sis and me are hungry bt ppl inside still happily eating.Mum,bro and sis say dun wan eat tis lerHx wan go find other's place bt i continue queueing,AT LAST...hahas,2.30pm went inside and eat then abt 4pm then went out,SO FULL(;.Then went walk walk,i wan buy sumthing for mum,then mum say she wan a bracelet,so we went jewellery shop to see,mum saw one bracelet very nice,then at last bro pay for it,LOL..then i still owe bro money cos i told him we share money to buy,then mum lik it alot,hahas..sis say she gg to buy a cake for mum then mum say next wk then buy cos haven Mother's day,so we went home after tat.Today,went to uncle(father side) hse today to celebrate early Mother's day for grandma,then went thr at abt noon 1pm sumthing and reach thr and hav buffet,erm..mum was sad,cos dad wasn't thr...bt after some fooling around of bro,sis and me..i tink she's okie,so went inside the hse and mum chat wif aunt they all and play mahjong,everything is fine after tat,well...at nite,cut cake and it was durian ice-cream cake (;,nice..hahas,bro and sis dunno hw to eat =x.Then after eating cake,we wan go home lerHx,so yea..take train and went home.Tat's all (;

My grandma,she wasn't very clear of everything nw,so while i request her to take photo wif me,kinda scare she might scold me,bt she didn't (;

2009-04-25T21:43:00.000+08:00

Today is crystal sister b'dae,happy b'dae to her.Ytd went k-box to celebrate for her after my first lesson of sch,my half done PM project still nt done yet =x,bt still hav to rush home for crystal b'dae,planned some game bt was nt as fun as i thought it will be,bt still thks the b'dae gal for her cooperation for the game,hahas xD.After k-box was abt 6pm sumthing,went swensen to hav dinner,esther and crystal bf was thr,after swensen me and jolyn follow esther wif her bf to bugis awhile then find esther bro and slack at one place in the car..play poker till abt 12:30am,her bf drive us home and yea..i am so tired ytd..lol,today noon..bring quan to my hse as i promised him,mum,bro,sis and me bring him to hav sushi at the swimming complex near my hse,then went home rest awhile and went jp walk..5pm sumthing hav dinner at foodcourt and went home,having headache whole day...-.-,gonna post some picts,enjoy (;

2009-04-18T22:08:00.001+08:00

Sch has already started for 1wk and here i am to blog abt tis 1 wk xD,tired,so tired,so so tired..every morning juz feel lik to skip sch for 1 day,hahas..bt i didn't.Went to sch is lik slack as usual,learn nth much cos wasn't studying,was surfing net and drming all the way,lol..finally it's sat,bt still hav to do project -.-,i hav done half of it..another half of it i dunno hw to do,lol..sianz.Noon 1pm sumthing went je market and meet my aunt wif mum,bro,sis and bro friend..aunt treat eat bak guk tea,then walk around and went home,went grandma hse at 5pm sumthing wif mum,saw aunt and cousin at downstair playing,so i went find them..wow,fun..so long nv play badminton,blow bubbles and ride bicycle lerHx and i hav done it all by once today,hahas...fun..tomoro gt to waked up early for sumthing tat i wun be blogging here,lol..okie,tat's all..i am tired,gdnite ;)

2009-04-11T00:55:00.000+08:00

Today is my b'dae lerHx,nw is 12.29am,dunno wat could be happening tomoro,bt i onli noe i lying on the bed juz feel lik to blogging,cos i was tinking of last yr,my b'dae celebration,and comparing to tis yr,it's really feel terrible,last yr...having b'dae party,sis and my b'dae party on the same day,and as bro was 21 yrs old so dad and mum said wan to let bro hav another party on his b'dae itself,though i look fine bt dad and mum noe in the bottom of my heart,i still will feel abit nt happy,so on my b'dae tat day,they buy another cake for me,a tiramisu cake bought at gek poh,i didn't noe tat was dad last time celebrate my b'dae for me,we took photo,they sing b'dae song for me,rmb the cake hav chocolate,and i ask can eat tat chocolate anot,if i nv rmb wrong,dad said...tis is ur b'dae cake,the chocolate u eat,then i eat the chocolate and dad sit infront of me watching tv,hw happy was it,i can still rmb,bt i can't feel anymore,i rather no party,no surprise or anything,juz a cake wif my family around celebrating for me,i miss u dad...i really do,do u noe hw many times i hav been tinking during those vacation or holiday tat if u were around,we will lik before gg out tgt and u bring us to shopping then we happily go home,maybe sometime will hav some quarrel tat make u and mum angry bt i really wanna say i am sorry,though compare to bro and sis i follow u and mum go out most often bt i dun feel enough,if u could be so lucky lik those ppl i read in the newspaper,back to live after being announce dead,hw happy will it be,after reading the newspaper,i keep on tinking,if we hav wait longer,will u back to live?Bt nt we dun wan to wait,is the doctor in NUH already wan to take out ur organs,they keep washing the organs in ur body,do u noe..seeing u lying on the bed bleeding here and thr and being poke by needles on ur neck,ur hand and so...we hav no choice bt to let u rest in peace,we giv up the pit of hope,and tat was a fake hope NUH doctor gave us..today,i juz wan to hear a b'dae song frm my dad,mum,bro and sis..once again.Lik the past..nv change.

2009-04-08T20:35:00.000+08:00

Ytd went out wif kcje..meet jolyn at 1pm sumthing,then she told me esther and crystal went for job interview at marina first so we walk walk at citylink for awhile and wait for them,then went marina shop awhile and esther they all call jolyn say they okie lerHx,so meet at k-box,went thr,saw them..we went in to the rm and thr's b'dae song,after tat esther and crystal went out ask the ppl thr bring in the cake,and thr i saw the cake they done,hahas..thks sis...the cake was nice decorated (;.Then they sing b'dae song for me and take photos,cut cake..jolyn,if gt chance send me those photos again,ps cos i accidentally del frm my hp while i wanna bluetooth to my lappy xD,lol..after tat we start to sing,and 7pm we went off..meet esther friends,he drive us to changi village to hav dinner first,then after dinner went to lim chu kang,drive around the cemetery,then after driving a few rounds,already 10pm sumthing,me and jolyn wan go home lerHx,so esther friends drive us home first, reach jolyn hse first so she went down first then me,they having driving competition,see which car reach first,lol..funny,in the end the car we sit on win the competition,hahas..so tat's all (;