Wednesday, February 29, 2012
11:25 PM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Serious shit!Today headache like hell,dunno why?I feel so tired recently,its physically or..mentally?Feeling emotional as always,but today got worst I guess?So,to cool down tat feeling,I walked home after work.Tat path,it reminds me of so much memories,hav the feel of wanna cry,but,i did not.I dunno why.Tat path,got K.C.J.E,got Bryan,got family too.It's juz a path frm jp to my home,yet..it can let me hav so much so much of memories.Whenever I walk tat path,it's juz a kind of happy feeling brings with some sadness.I think it is becos all the memories are sweet,but all are bygones.No longer can lead the same memories again,yea..I juz got to move on.Life still goes on.Nth will stop for me acting tis way.So,pls..."myself",stop behaving tis way.U can do it.Lock ur heart.It's all past.All past.
Saturday, February 25, 2012
12:01 AM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
After 5 yrs nv been to dentist for tooth checkup,today,I wasted $770/- to fix my 11 decay tooth.Damn heartpain.Bt,I still hav to amend my decay tooth,no choice.LOL.$770/- fly away juz lik tis.Haha.Kns.Earn till so hard,spend till so easy.-.-"
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
8:39 PM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
I am lost.I dunno whr can i move on.My job,i am lik standing at the middle of the crossroad,i dunno whr to go.My boss promised me he will convert my colleague to perm staff,and he really did convert my colleague before feb.Bt,according to my colleague react,she doesn't seems to be happy for tis news.Count as i selfish,i juz wanna keep her same lvl as me,reason being,i dun wan her to feel unfair,bt oso i dun wan becos of the lvl,i need to put in more responsible.Means,i hope we both share the same responsible.Then,changes is coming again.Challenges is coming towards me again.My boss chatted wif me today again.He told me,i can be somebody someday,provided i am willing to put in the efforts.I hesitate.I asked him,did he overestimated me?He ans:"no".And he asked me,do u wan to be tat somebody.Well...i feel lik asking,can i?I really can do it?Frm wat he told me,can feel tat he believes me,he look gd on me,he hav the confident on me.Bt,hw come i dun gain the confident?I can do it?Can i?Even my boss,boss is leaving.Isit a gd thing or a bad thing?Somebody gg to chap my WH again,omy...pls............let us be the one to solve it,to control it and to maintain it.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
9:25 PM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
As I grow older,things surrounded me let me feels that life's so fuzzy.It's nt perfect lik hw I thought it was when I was young.Life can nv rewind,so forget abt the thought of "I hope I can go back to young times",I can only move forward.At times,I am thinking..shld I change myself to overcome this fuzzy life?Maybe if I dun be so conserved,more open-minded,then I won't suffer alone.If I can dun be so infatuation,maybe I already fall in and fall out of love umpteen times.Labels: Eh...pls, FML.It's getting suck.
Monday, November 21, 2011
11:46 PM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
I have been saying,have been tinking,tat i wanna leave tis co.,leave tis job,blah blah blah.And so..juz a few mins back,i am at one of the website looking for job vacancy,bt...something's shocked me,i suddenly have a feeling of reluctant to.I can't imagine leaving tis co.,hw would it be.Will i found a better job or a job tat is worst than wat i am doing nw,is leaving tis co. and look for other job really wat i want?I doubt so.I dunno.I feel so complicated rite nw.My feelings have been running around tis few wks.It's lik,a feeling tat i cannot explain.Bt the onli word i can define tis feeling is,pain.Cos it's a feeling which makes me wanna cry.Pls save me.It's either u kill me or u save me,dun tortured me.I hav been leading a hard life which i can't imagine wat i would do next.Tell me tell me tell me tell me tell me tell me tell me tell me,i wan an ans.
Monday, November 14, 2011
11:26 AM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
On the 12 nov,thr's co. chalet organised by my department(warehouse),me and my boss organised everything.At first,everything was fine.Although it rains bt in the end,rain stopped.And,ppls who are invited came.Then,the crowd was thr,out of sudden,i juz feel lik being alone,so went to the beach for a walk,sit thr,trying to relax myself,bt dunno why..my heart feel ache,i go back to the chalet and hope i would get some merrier frm thr bt i feel worst,so i went back to the beach again,for quite sometime.Tink of the past,when my cousin celebrated her 21st thr,my dad drive me frm whitesand to aloha,at the swimming pool,while taking the video of my uncle and the kid my mum take care of,in the swimming pool,my dad was beside laughing so loud.Cool down abit,go back to the chalet,and finally get some entertainment frm some colleague's,then suddenly,something happened,somebody was drunk in the chalet,and then it spoiled the chalet,though most of them was back,all the big bosses has oso lefted,bt...i and a few colleagues still thr,overall,tis chalet didn't enjoy much,it looks lik it was a success one,bt..to me,it was nt,cos of those happening,and so...my plan to spend thr overnight changed,i went home wif the colleagues tat hav no intention to stay thr overnight at abt 5am plus in the morning.Wif the moody mood.Telling myself,i will nv organise co. chalet anymore,or nt,i will nt attend.Unless thr is a better reason for me to go for such "entertainment".13 NovBelieving it would onli bring complication to my life,bt...no matter hw much i choose nt to believe,i can't run away frm the fact that they gain nth for lying,they lose nth for lying,they hav no reason to lied to us.No matter it's true or not,i tell myself if my lov life really gonna suffer or even bring unhappiness to my family,then i would rather choose not to lov,nt to fall in lov and nt to let somebody lov,bt...i am afraid i can't do it,bt frm nw on,i muz try,i muz do it,i am nt gonna fall in lov trap again,falling in lov with somebody is onli giving that person authority to hurt you.Bt,it's my dad part that makes me keep on tinking till i keep on dropping tears.I can't accept that i hav to lose my dad,ytd that conversation let me worried that after i leave tis world,i oso can't find my dad,let me worried that thr is no more next life with my dad,mum,bro,sis and me together as one family again.Why we hav no right to choose?Why everything muz be destined for us since the day we are born?It toally sounds lik we are the chess of the god.Whr we go,hw we live,what we do,when are we gg to die,all are decided by heaven,decided by don't know which god.And tis god is really unfair,it let somebody suffer till wanna end tis life asap,it let somebody rich till wanna live till long live and nv die.It let somebody who wan a son get a daughter,it let somebody wan a daughter get a son.It let the kind person being bully,it let the evil person being protected.So it indirectly created a evil mindset in human's heart isn't it?All are human,why can't everyone be the same?I dun mean same character,same faces,same voice,same attitude,i onli mean hav the same kind of heart,same human nature.Won't do things tat's so inhuman,hav some heart,though i am human,bt i am oso scare of human,nt onli other's,bt oso myself,cos i dunno one day,what would occurs me,what would infect me,i dunno hw will i turn to be in future,bt if i am able to decide,i will nv wan myself to turn to a bad person.
Friday, September 16, 2011
11:44 PM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Today,new boss told me tat he may wan to send me to US for one business trip.Kinda shock bt I am actually quite looking forward.Bt too bad uh,it's nt lik those tv drama,gg business trip wif the handsome boss,hahaha.So actually,I am quite worried abt this,if gg wif old boss I still feel alrite,bt new boss jiu abit scary.LOL.Hm...so even if its real i oso dunno shld go or shldn't?Well...if mine is mine,run away oso no use,same thing for the opp.船到桥头自然直 -_-
