Wednesday, February 27, 2008
1:59 PM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Today go sch as normal, bt as dad car was still repairing, i take bus to interchange myself and take mrt to simei, everything still the same, the feeling still remain, nobody noe, nobody will care..i am tired, gt back my practical test result for ees, guess wat? The "BEST" marks i hav ever get for test..0 mark? I was so so feeling down, i need someone to talk to, bt..no one, break time, meet wif LL..she was wif a friend of hers in ite, so i nv tell her anything, after her ite friend went away, i oso nv talk abt it, was tinking..forget abt it, then after break, LL went back first and i still hav 15 mins more before gg back to class, i was walking around the lvl4 and killing time, called E, as she called me juz nw..then was asking her to chat wif me bt i guess she was quite busy? So i ask her go do her stuff and hang, and suddenly feel so lonely, and i cry again,went toilet and after tat went walk walk and finally back to class..sitting on the very end and tat was the time i get back my another test result, tat was ees theory,haas..better than the previous one? I gt 1/15, guess i am the lousier student in tis class? I dun even noe the basic, wat can i do?=.= And i oso feel lik smiling, i am trying to a fake smile, bt..will tat look nice? Dun ask me to smile when u duno hw i am feeling, nobody understand, nobody bother to hear, and i am tired to trying to tell, i dun wan do it anymore...
tat's foolish i noe, bt tat's wat i can do to stop crying, the more pain i get frm the flesh, the less pain i get frm my heart...
Thursday, February 21, 2008
8:42 AM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
No one noe my feeling,no one understand me,no one can chat wif me and let me say out wat my heart feeling,ppl chat wif me onli ask me dun sad,live happy,if so easy then why muz i choose to be sad?I am scare when i noe thr r sch the next day,when i noe sch end early i will start to smile,tat's wat my lifestyle nw,and i hav no friend in ite,i dun wan mixed wif them,cos i really can't get along wif them,nt i dun wan,life after 16 r sux,tat's wat i am tinking nw...
Friday, February 01, 2008
1:45 PM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Haiz..wat shld i do?Or i shld say wat can i do nw?I wan to rewind back the time,can i?It's rather tired to carry on everything nw,i used to be a person who dun wan to be late for sch,bt nw..i didn't giv a damn at all,late late lo,so wat xD..tat's my tinking..i dun lik tis kind of me=.=,hm..last time i gt many ppl giv me option and advise,bt nw all seem to hav gone..i dunno who can i talk to,i am trying very hard nt to cry bt once again,i cry tis morning..as i am really confuse,at tat moment i feel lik quit sch and..i oso dunno,write till here le ba..
