Saturday, January 31, 2009
9:46 PM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Morning feeling so sick and headache,planned to go cityhall today bt mum say she dun wan go,then after one big round then she agree to go,bt between tis "one big round",she said some words and make me actually feel kinda sad,she say one of the reason she dun wanna go is becos i always go out happy happy bt time to go home i sure giv attitude,bt thr is reason inside..isit becos i nv say tat's why u always tink u r rite?Sometimes is becos of sis and bro,lik it was nt my fault bt they suddenly beat me for fun bt i am nt in the mood "for fun" and i beat back then start to quarrel bt the person get scolded for wrong is me,sometimes is i wanna see sumthing in the shop bt i haven finish then u juz went off without telling me,is tat my fault for being angry?Maybe i am too "xiao qi",bt i oso dun lik to be tis way everytime,do u noe the feeling of me being frustrated everytime?My head will get very very pain until it was lik gg to burst and tat's the reason i do sumthing stupid,nt i wan bt tat's the way i can make myself feel better,u noe?U dunno,dad noe..he wun let me get angry cos he understand wat i wan,maybe..tat's the reason i become tis way,cos i was being pamper by dad in the past.Before gg to cityhall...bro,sis and me quarrel..i hope i can stop all tis,cos i noe..mum hate to see it,and if dad is around,tis wouldn't be the way he wan to see too,bt why...we noe tat we still do it.I often let thing be the way it's gg to be,cos i always use "it's heaven will" as the excuse,is it really heaven will..or human will?I oso dunno,i get to miss dad more and more tis few days,i can see dad face when i close my eyes,bt i can't hug him,i can't touch him.I often suddenly tink of the second last time dad stay hospital,tat midnite..is the day dad get slight stroke,uncle drive him to hospital,me and mum follow,bt dad went in and mum and me went home,although dad midnite went bt morning then get to see the doctor,so he stay in the hospital then noon..bro,sis,me and mum went to visit dad,when we reach,dad went to bathing,so we wait for him in his sickbed,he came back..his lunch is served,thr r fruit,honeydew..dad give us eat,then next day he was discharge and we went to fetch him,hw i hope the last time was lik tat too,bt it was nt...dad didn't leave wif us,he leave himselves..dad,we love u,we miss u.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
10:25 AM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Firstly,Happy Chinese New Year to all chinese ;).Tis yr dun really make me hav the feel of new yr,bt afterall..was kinda fun,new yr eve went royal hotel to eat and at thr was fun,we teenagers one table,then kids and adults two tables,after tat went to chinatown..squeezy,and oso quarrel wif one idiot person sell mochi thr,cos we take the mochi,we didn't take alot bt he go add some in and cost $10,i ask mum dun buy then we dun wan buy,tat idiot thr say muz put back,then mum ask me put back,wth...then bro noe lerHx stare at him and he shout vulgar at bro then bro wanna quarrel wif him bt mum stopped him and uncle came,uncle asked wat happened and when he noe,he snatch the packet of mochi and throw on the table then say hack care him,see wat he gonna do,then he scare scare liao,bodoh larHx him,pls leh..here is sg!Dun find trouble here.Then went back to uncle hse,do nth sia,i very sian..then chatted wif cousin and 3am lerHx..slp at ah ma hse,next day..morning 7am waked up,faster go home change new yr shirt,10am..went ah ma hse eat lerHx and take hong bao then went to temple,after tat went back uncle hse,around 4pm sumthing then went to another grandma hse(father side),oso take hong bao and we gambler =x,didn't win..hahas,7pm went back to ah ma hse,went to "he pan",nth sia thr...so boring,buy a cup corn to eat xP,then went back ah ma hse,very bored,do nth...then midnite 1am sumthing went pioneer mall mac wif uncles,aunts,cousins,bro and mum..hav a mac flurry,lol...then went home awhile and back to ah ma hse,3am sumthing too,slp..another day,can waked up abit late,so shld be 9am sumthing then waked,went home,change shirt and went to teacher hse,sing song and after tat 1pm sumthing then went to grandma hse(father side),at thr,slp awhile and waked..mum still haven come cos while we went teacher hse,she went ah ma hse(her side)..then wait for mum to come then i start to gambler wif aunts,uncles,cousins they all..win $3.50 onli,actually can hav more derHx leh...bt last round i lose,lol..nvm larHx,hav fun can lerHx..then eat dinner and went home.Tat's all abt tis yr new yr ;) Labels: Dad..wif u around is much more better.Then i wun hav boring time.Cos u are thr.I can see ur smile..really.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
3:27 PM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
I dun lik my family nw,becos of the fucking attitude me and my family having nw.Sometimes can be very gd tgt,bt once quarrel..tis will be wat mum always say.."ask ur father bring me go he nv,he better come and bring me go after u all grow up",wat she mean by tat?If really die lerHx can be tgt wif dad lik the show "yin cha yang chuo",i oso wish i could go find dad,very tired..i am always the one make mum angry,everytime go out surely will quarrel,i nv do anything,juz dun wan talk to mum cos i am angry,i nv go quarrel wif her,she juz dun care me larHx,fuck...till nw still dunno hw dad die,always many ppl saying many things i really wan to dig out my mind and stop tinking those fucking prob,who dun miss dad?Wth...i am oso dad daughter can,always say sumthing say until lik i dun care,always cry dad will revive ma?If will,i cry until blind i oso cry can?Damn it,fucking fate changed my life,sometimes u all jking bt i am nt in the mood juz dun care me larHx,u all dunno wat i tinking ma,my heart already wanna cry out then still scold me,my fault uh?Fucking hw i wish i am nt living in tis world,anything oso can happen bt why tis things?Dad passed away cannot be alive lerHx,if other things happen nvm,as long as my family are living and healthy,anything i can oso accept,i juz dun wish to be tis way,my greatest wish is to go oversea wif my family tgt,walk tgt,eat tgt,live tgt..bt tat can nv be fulfil anymore.Labels: Dad..do u noe i really dun wish to be tis way.Sori..i promised u nt to quarrel anymore bt i didn't keep my promise..i even become more worst.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
5:21 PM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Morning dun feel lik waking up,the weather make me wanna slp longer,bt gt sch at 8am so still force myself to waked at 6am,i am done wif everything bt still haven receive a call frm nisha,i thought she haven ready so i msg her bt she reply me she juz woked up at 6.30am,lol..then wait for her call,until 7am she still haven call and i tink she shld be almost ready lerHx,so walk to boon lay mrt station wif sis,on the way i called nisha and she told me leaving in 5mins lata,then i say ok bt i am already on the way to mrt station,nv take bus so i tink the timing more or less shld be the same,reach mrt and nisha told me she still taking bus,i reach je and get down frm thr,wait for nisha,sis alone take train =x,ps uh...waited for quite long and see every train passby none of it is nt squeezy,all fill wif lots of ppl,my gosh..then nisha came,the train we take oso quite many ppls,and kyna came in at redhill,reach sch lerHx,we was late for 1hr,reach class and saw the whiteboard written ifa lesson was cancel today-.-,so why do i still come today?Juz doing one wires,hahas..bt kinda fun,went cafe 2 hav lunch wif kyna and waited for friend 1 hr bt for no reason,and went home,before went home,go jp buy mum fav colesaw..reach home saw grandma and mum friend,i was tired bt i still went pioneer mall alone juz to buy tat stupid magazine,i thought gt wat interesting things,ended up it was juz some rumour or watsoever..nth much,enjoy...Labels: Always in our heart...
Thursday, January 08, 2009
9:21 PM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Tis morning,meet nisha at je and she told me she called kyna alots of times bt she didn't pick up,so i tried to call,nobody pick up and frm je to simei,me and nisha was keep trying to call bt still nobody pick the phone,then reach sch time is still early,me and nisha went to cafe 1 and eat first,finally kyna called,she will be coming in the noon as she overslp,after tat..we went back to class for lesson,class is at 6th floor bt one of the lecturer tat is nt our lecturer,if i am nt wrong shld be section head of tis lesson,he bring us down to 1st storey and we went inside,he ask us form grp and dismiss us early,then niki,nisha and me went tamp ite,cos they wanna buy the uni and skirt frm their sch as our sch no stock,then tamp oso dun hav-.-,we sitting in the bus stop tinking which ite to go,bt in the end we still went back to own campus,lol..then sit at cafe 1 slack,kyna came,then sit until time up,went to lab and study,do coding..and after tat dennis told me boon and tai coming find us,then me and kyna and a few of my class guys went out of class,then fews of us staying thr to slack,the wind very big,LOL..went back to class awhile lata to do presentation,finish and dismiss,went tamp wif kyna to change my spoil hp casing,change to crystal casing as tat look nicer,kyna buy casing too,then went home after tat...tired-.-,finally tomoro fri xD.Enjoy ;)Labels: Loved and missed u..dad.
