Monday, April 28, 2008
12:20 PM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Sat slack at home,nv go out xD..onli went grandma hse wif mum and then went to quan hse as i promised him on fri cos i wasn't at home when he came my hse,my mum invited his family to my hse hav steamboat,went we went home..grandma was here too,then we eat steamboat tgt xD So suay sia,burn my hand,so pain=.=,then was so full,stomach pain after tat-.-"..then quan stay at my hse for one nite,tis morning went to hav mac,eaten hotcake wif sausage and mum bring quan home at noon..i slack at home again till 5 sumthing,went quan hse,fetch him to go out wif us to gek poh for dinner as mum promise him too xD,went gek poh at 6pm lik tat..had dinner and quan wan eat fries,so we went mac..dad order 2 big fries,eat and went home,bring quan home wif mum and back to home,surf net nw and was so bored,tomoro sch again=.="
my burn hand =(
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
12:58 PM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
This morning,meet wif ting at boon lay interchange wif my jie,saw wc at thr to,went to sch as usual,do everything accept for studying xD,after the ees practical lesson,went to lla,done some listen and written work and watch video.."pursuit for happyness",hm..to highlight,nt i spell wrongly,is the video is spell "happyness" instead of "happiness" =),then went for break,after break,went for ees theory,sit at the same seats,the very corner,when time for vb lesson,teacher ask me to stay back,talk to me,haiz..i damn sad lerHx,dunno why..i express out my feeling,tell teacher all i was tinking during her lesson,i tell her "so far,i learn NTH","I dun understand wat she's teaching",wat she reply is..tomoro ask me go for her tuition,highlight the ques wat i dunno,ask her tomoro,i guarantee..even if i does tat,she teach me,i still dunno derHx,either her teaching too bad,or i can't focus cos i nt interested =.=,i am trying,really..bt sumting holding me back,i am envious of ppl who make the right choice for their ite course,bt i didn't,tat's was wat i am regretting,bt..it's too late...once again,i cried..it was embarassing,and it took me a long time to calm down,when...when can i find back the happiness of mine?I juz love sec sch alot,i didn't noe leaving thr will suffer so much,bt to me onli,cos ppl around me was all fine,maybe i am too rely,rely on things i and used to it,i hate changing,bt in tis world,i guess thr r too many things for us to explore,impossible to stay on the way as u lik..tat shall be all i blog for today...
Friday, April 11, 2008
4:05 PM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
It was 11 apr today,last nite gt some wished frm some friend,and a juz know friendster friend,he was the first who wish me happy b'dae on the day itself!He went for ns lerHx bah,lolx..i didn't noe it and he told me,i was lik feeling guilty as he told me before bt i forget xP,hm..get quite alot wishes bt accept for my 3 sisters,all was frm others,tat i wasn't familiar wif,all those who noe me lik some guy friends and etc etc dun even wish me happy b'dae=.=,kind of friends..lolx =X,bt wat make me most disappointed is hw i wish to get a wishes frm him,i even purposely set a cake as my msn DP and scare he wun notice,i chat wif him,lik hi to him bt he didn't wish me anw...i was so foolish,hw will he remember=.=,anw..dad and mum brought a cake for me,i did celebrate my b'dae on tat day =)
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
3:50 AM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Nw is still sch holiday,i am happy of cos,bt worried too cos it's gonna sch reopen soon. My feeling nw is happy and sad? Becos of the chalet,it's for us to find back hw KCJE used to be bt becos of an idiot,bring a gal came and everything starts frm thr,i dunno use wat words to describe the friendship i am currently having nw bt i try very hard to get back hw it was,and i knew..it's impossible lerHx. My friend suspect me and her stead bah,i guess..she didn't told me,i was lik..wth?She noe who i lik,why still feel so?Why dun let me noe?I gonna keep distance wif her stead lerHx,bt really me and him noe we r juz friend,we feel nth for each other,dunno wat make her tink tat,anw..it was quite disappointed,i care too much,i shldn't,sori i lied,u believe anot i was tinking of u when i does tat,nt for myself,cos i am ur friend,ur sister,i dun wan see u cry for ur own relationship lerH,wat's the point he told me he was sad becos of u,u was sad becos of him?U two hav many unsolved prob tat i can't help so i really duno xD,i hav my prob too,i can't always be thr for u all,really!And nw,becos of tat idiot who bring the gal to our chalet and scold us at friendster,we all almost quarrel,nw..wat is it?I hack care lerHx,my hand,i scratch it on 3 apr,becos of quarreling wif sis,i am frustrated,i cry and scratch my hand,it bleed,gt scar,i gone crazy at tat moment,i can't imagine tat's me?Mum saw tat scar,say i done again gonna send me for conselling,lol..sian,bro keep saying me,make me feel so ps=.=. I was happy on sat,i dream oso nv tink tat i can saw him thr,at work..lol,bt we didn't talk anw?Juz act lik stranger walking pass and work,and went home,sun went work again,thought he will be thr,bt he nv come lerHx,i was troubling why he wasn't here bt nw i noe le,chat wif him on msn last nite,he say the work kns,lol..and was happy chatting wif him,tat's enough lerHx bah,being friend wif him,i can't expect more,to me,he is wonderful,thr's too many ppl for him to choose,so i wun be the one for him,hahas..hm..tat's all i blog bah..=Pi am sori family as i cut my hand once and once again;
i am sori my friend as i lied to u and i make u all feel tat wat friend and sister r for nth;
i am sori to ppl arnd me tat sumtimes i juz step attitude;
i am sori to ppl i nv keep promise to them;
i am sori to myself tat i nv study well enough;
i really hate the life nw,bt i can't go back anymore,
i hate moving on, i can't see any future for me,
is thr any?
my burn hand =(
