Tuesday, April 08, 2008
3:50 AM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Nw is still sch holiday,i am happy of cos,bt worried too cos it's gonna sch reopen soon. My feeling nw is happy and sad? Becos of the chalet,it's for us to find back hw KCJE used to be bt becos of an idiot,bring a gal came and everything starts frm thr,i dunno use wat words to describe the friendship i am currently having nw bt i try very hard to get back hw it was,and i knew..it's impossible lerHx. My friend suspect me and her stead bah,i guess..she didn't told me,i was lik..wth?She noe who i lik,why still feel so?Why dun let me noe?I gonna keep distance wif her stead lerHx,bt really me and him noe we r juz friend,we feel nth for each other,dunno wat make her tink tat,anw..it was quite disappointed,i care too much,i shldn't,sori i lied,u believe anot i was tinking of u when i does tat,nt for myself,cos i am ur friend,ur sister,i dun wan see u cry for ur own relationship lerH,wat's the point he told me he was sad becos of u,u was sad becos of him?U two hav many unsolved prob tat i can't help so i really duno xD,i hav my prob too,i can't always be thr for u all,really!And nw,becos of tat idiot who bring the gal to our chalet and scold us at friendster,we all almost quarrel,nw..wat is it?I hack care lerHx,my hand,i scratch it on 3 apr,becos of quarreling wif sis,i am frustrated,i cry and scratch my hand,it bleed,gt scar,i gone crazy at tat moment,i can't imagine tat's me?Mum saw tat scar,say i done again gonna send me for conselling,lol..sian,bro keep saying me,make me feel so ps=.=. I was happy on sat,i dream oso nv tink tat i can saw him thr,at work..lol,bt we didn't talk anw?Juz act lik stranger walking pass and work,and went home,sun went work again,thought he will be thr,bt he nv come lerHx,i was troubling why he wasn't here bt nw i noe le,chat wif him on msn last nite,he say the work kns,lol..and was happy chatting wif him,tat's enough lerHx bah,being friend wif him,i can't expect more,to me,he is wonderful,thr's too many ppl for him to choose,so i wun be the one for him,hahas..hm..tat's all i blog bah..=Pi am sori family as i cut my hand once and once again;
i am sori my friend as i lied to u and i make u all feel tat wat friend and sister r for nth;
i am sori to ppl arnd me tat sumtimes i juz step attitude;
i am sori to ppl i nv keep promise to them;
i am sori to myself tat i nv study well enough;
i really hate the life nw,bt i can't go back anymore,
i hate moving on, i can't see any future for me,
is thr any?
