Wednesday, May 28, 2008
10:50 PM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Today gt back test result,nt bad uh..frm 1.5/33 to 12/30..improvement ;P. Dad and mum 22th wedding anniversary,HAHAs..and was asked to giv their 3 childs "me,sis and bro" a treat at suki sushi,lol..so yea..hav dinner thr,ate alots and was full..hahas,actually i was posting some post before this post,was having bad mood tat time,post abt some kinds of feeling i am having,bt was erased as i haven finish the post bt we r gg out to hav dinner so i juz close it and delete it,currently mood was okok..hahas,bt still nt so gd ar,haix..i juz wan to get over the shadow of kcje,seriously...i wan to say tis "let's end it here,find a better friends and be freedom,keep the best part of kcje memories",so i wun keep tinking tat we r still besties bt we seem wasn't anymore,today..at sch,when lesson haven start and i was thr early,sitting thr having nth to do,i msg kcje friends..and onli 1 of them reply me,and she reply "lols",juz one word,alrite..it's enough,i dun mind juz one word bt it's better than another two who didn't reply anything?I hav told myself nt to msg them chain msg ever since tat time they didn't reply bt i did it again today,stupid rite?-.- I tink back,when was kcje born?And i still remember it was start at mrt train,when ting say gonna giv ourselves a grp name and she given tis name "KCJE",and i agree without 2nd thought,i hav thought of tat too before she mention it.I dun get it...i feel tat between the four of us,i am always odd one out,am i detestable?I always hav one feeling,if were to let them choose onli can hav one friend,to ting..without esther then next she will consider is ling,to ling..without ting the next will be esther,to esther..without ting the next is ling,i am always the last they will consider bah?Bt to me,i wish to keep all..without anyone of them is meaningless to hold on tis friendship,seriously..i post this out i dun expect anyone to see,bt i hav no one to talk to so i can onli talk to my diary here,i hav tried to talk to someone when they wanna noe my trouble bt they say i hav tink too much,i first thought it was too,bt i was confirm it wasn't,it's true..i am nt tinking too much,feeling let me feel so,wat can i do?If really is i am tinking too much then sori kcje,i hav choose to tink of giv up,dun wanna care anymore until the feeling of treasure frm u all is back,anw..u all r still my friends,bt wasn't the best anymore nw..i hope when time goes by..we will be back to wat we used to be,at tat moment,then..maybe...
wow..alots of plates uh?23 plates of sushi we hav eat..lol
Saturday, May 24, 2008
8:26 PM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Was so bored today,morning went PM to hav mac breakfast,went giant and then went home,play com awhile then went to slp lerHx,so tired,waked up..still nth to do,eat my lunch,hav mushrm soup and fried banana,then slack and slack,slp again..waked up,awhile lata..hav my dinner at 4pm sumthing,went downstair wif mum to open to letter case,my hp bill came,nt ex uh..as usual,i knew it in the earlier,cos didn't sms much for tis mth xD,or shld put it 'tis few mth'..dunno is gd or bad uh?Gd is bill didn't exceed the standard pay,bad is my friend is lesser and lesser,so both oso hav xD. Nth to do and sis is doing project so i cannot use com,ask mum to make muffin wif me,dad was back home frm work..after his dinner,he is waiting for my muffin,i was so exciting seeing the muffin become bigger,lol..then in the end finally "ting",it's done,i take it out for everyone to taste it,i am first to taste it and yea,it taste..-.-,kns..lol,mum and dad say it is nice bt sis keep suaning,i know larHx,i taste it too..it's nt nice,after awhile bro saying nt nice too..hahas,do it again next time uh =x,will make it improve to become better xP..shall blog till here,showing the muffin out,LOLx
was trying to make smiley faces bt..abit weird uh?
Thursday, May 22, 2008
8:05 AM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Hm..slp at midnite 12am sumthing tis few days,waked at 5.30am,cannot tahan sia..lol..finally today can slp till 6.30am,hahas..take mrt wif jie,saw my zi bi di,lolx...actually didn't saw him bt he came forward and hit my head,lol. Then on the mrt,was so tired..at around eunos bah,then gt seats xD,awhile lata..jie went off at kembangan station as usual,me alone to simei,walking to sch again..wanna walk slowly as still early,was tinking K.C.J.E again,wondering hw gd it was if we were in same campus or rather same course too..and guess wat?I saw ling infront walking wif her ite friend,was feeling so sad..my friend was walking wif others while i am juz behind her walking alone,wanna call her to tell her i am behind,bt i didn't..i guess i will nt talk to her even if i walkig wif her,so let her walk wif her ite friend,i noe..she didn't noe i was behind her,cannot blame her..i didn't blame her oso,bt it was..the feeling nobody can noe unless u were me,i hav tried to told tis things when kcje meet,bt..to them,their ans is lik "no big deal",bt to me..it is,cos i scared they will treat their ite friend more impt than kcje,i scared they will let them overtake kcje,yea..tat's wat i am tinking,bt it will sound foolish when i say it out,so i am always reminding them kcje is still around at jan to apr,bt i am tired nw..i dun wan to remind anymore,cos i realised,if kcje can last long..it shld nt by my reminding,it sound lik i was forcing them to hold on tis friendship,i guess..it shld court on kcje itself,four of us hav the responsibility of holding on tis friendship,if we lose tis..means we aren't fit to name ourselves as kcje,if we last long..means tis is a worth friendship we hav ever had ;),since i hav type so many lerHx,shall nt talk abt sch things lerHx,anw..hav nth much to talk abt sch..
Saturday, May 17, 2008
7:50 AM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Finally it's fri and sch ended =P,sat,sun and mon dun hav to go sch =),hahas..mon will be vesak day uh!;) Today meet ling to go sch tgt,rarely happen ar..lol,then acc her until 9am then went for my lesson,having test..glad tat it was multiple choices ques xD,use half an hrs to anyhw do it..and went to find ling at cafe1 at 9.30am,she was wif her ite friends..hm..then hav mushrms soup and she went back her class wif her ite friends,left me alone,still..standard xD,went stadium,actually wanna stay thr emo bt was too many ppl so went cafe2 find dennis,sit thr..listen song and wait for time to pass ar..finally 11am,went to vb lesson..done a few java practise and then dismiss,hahas..so glad i hav done it,was too easy larHx..today lesson =),and so went to meet ling and take mrt tgt,buy soya bean milk and the dunno call wat at Mr Bean boonlay mrt station thr for my lunch and thr gt a auntie say the hotdog bun promotion $1 onli,i went in and buy one,actually wan giv mum eat bt she say she was full so onli eat half and i hav another half =P,lol..was full..and nw slacking again,tomoro gg out wif K.C.J.E,was quite looking forward to it,hope it will be a nice one ;),lolx..alrite,shall blog till here,take care!
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
1:45 PM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Start frm mon first,went for sw1=pe lesson at 8.25am when lesson suppose to start at 8am,walk for one round and told the teacher run 2 rounds lerHx =X,lazy uh..then it was assistant teacher to mark our attendance and do warm up wif us,warm up finish,teacher came lerHx,chui..say he wanna talk to me-.-,i noe sumthing happen xD,so he found out i run away frm sw lesson everywk and i gt me previous two wks attendance marked 0,i hav went!Bt i went off after warm up onli ma,nt onli me the onli one-.-,dunno was he blinded or wat he dare to asy to me tis.."u r a gal,i dun expect to see tis attitude frm u,especially u r a gal,i dun see any boys run away frm my lesson",oh pls..i run away wasn't alone,bt wif a friend on mine and he is a guy,forget it,i dun mind it at all,bt i wonder why i will cry after tat,when he finish talking lerHx,i went to the seats and my tears flow out,why?I dunno. Then 9.05am lik tat bah,change to sch uniform and went to hav lunch,after is 11am bt i hav to wait for ling so went to eastpoint wif dennis,went pet shop over thr,and wait till 1.15pm,i call ling and she say she is still at sch so i went home wif dennis first=.=",today..reach sch around 9am,sit thr doing project stuff,then 10am,lla lesson..continue the last wk video "PRIDE",nice video indeed ;),so long i hav watched many videos and i am impressed by it,lik all those video.."freedom writers,pursuit of happyness,pride" one more i forget the name lerHx uh =x,hm..then went to eat and ees theory,gt back test 2 result,guess i get hw much?LOLx..1.5/33,0.5 more than the others slacker lik me =X,bt it isn't proud anw,i knew-.-,vb lesson,do labsheet and well..still can't get the result so,yea..juz went home at 5.30pm,wait for ling at cafe 1,and went home..tat's all =)
Sunday, May 11, 2008
8:50 AM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Fri sch having test uh,i am prepare to fail it =x,lolx..thought thr r multiple choices ques,bt it was those ques tat need working all tis-.-,damn..holding on to the paper yet dunno wat to write. A gal frm my class giv me the ans for ques 2 when the test abt to end,lolx..bt even if it was correct,test still gonna fail xD,then went for a break,eat waffle at cafe 2,the queue was long and the waffle was -.-,i prefer cafe 1 derHx,lolx..short queue bt nice,hahas..cos the aunt make very fast =P,then went back to vb lesson,ees teacher take over as vb teacher went for meeting,giv us a work then i already done at the previous lesson cos gt a gd assistant teacher help me ;),and was all the way msn and chat chat,ling dismiss lerHx then ask me go out bring her into my class,damn..the teacher dun allow-.-,if was vb teacher,he will allow it..went bugis wif ling after sch,wanna buy a shirt for tis sun mother's day lunch,walk for so long and finally buy one shirt,argh..gonna get slim downT.T,hahaas,was eating too much ever since sch start ar..and yea,today was sat,dad drive mum and me to st91 to buy breakfast at 7am sumthing,and went home,still feeling tired so went to slp again and waked at 9am to hav breakfast,went to hav haircut,erm..still okie okie larHx,luckily tis time she nv cut my fringe short =P,went home,slack..nt prepare to went out today,wanna hav a gd rest at home,tomoro gg to celebrate mother's day wif families,shld be gg royal hotel,will blog and post pict at kris 1 if thr r picts taken ;)
i remember tat thursday,8 May 2008..it's the feeling tat come back again,i hate it;
wat can i do to stop tis feeling for coming back?
jealousy,afraid,devastate;
hiding myself at the corner..crying,listening to song,drawing rubbish;
nobody found out i was thr;
can't control and i juz cry,some classmates saw it,it's out of control,crying and crying;
finally,it's stop..juz wanna be alone at the point of time..bt i wasn't alone...
my heart was!I hav many ques,I need many ans..I need ppl to be wif me,
at least 1 friends of mine..
hw i wish K.C.J.E was thr..by my side...
Saturday, May 03, 2008
7:08 AM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Nth really happen today,bt was having quite alot surprise today uh..morning i meeting ting at 7am and while i was waiting for her,i saw K..he smile smile lik tat,he still the same ar..bt was too bad tat he was a gd guy bt hav a gf lik tis-.-,wat a waste xD,forget it..erm..then i wait for ting for almost half an hr as i reach early..i reach thr at 6.55am lik tat..then ting came at 7.20am plus go top up ezlink,luckily when i take train till half,teacher msg to told me lesson start 9.30am-.-",she shld hav msg me earlier,then was feeling so moody in the morning,i was having a normal mood before meeting ting,bt when meet her lerHx,i onli say "lol,so late ar"..then she say she lost her ezlink wif a mad expression then i say "hahas..relax larHx"..and she say "shut up first larHx",i was lik.."hm..okie=.=",and after tat..her mum called her,say she found her ezlink and then she talk to me,bt was asking me abt ytd the work,i wasn't aware of anything,she suddenly ask me " u ask ling wan to work anot nv ask me hoh ",i was stant,i dunno wat to say and was lik hw to ans oso wrong xD,then after tis ques,she asked me why ytd esther ask me out i dun wan,then i feeling very very..dunno hw to explain,cos before ting came, i saw ling,she meet wif her other friend as i thought she will be punctual for pe so nv ask her to meet,while ting topping ezlink,ling called me say she go wif her friend first,then i was very sad lerHx,i waited for ting nv go wif ling yet ting still blaming me for everything,i am so fcuk up wif all tis,friend ar friend,r u all really my real friends?i am tired of saying tis man xD,then okie..when reach sch,everything was all the way fine lerHx bah,as for lesson being changed to 9.30am,i find ling and chat wif her while she slacking at pe,then went cafe 1..soso........then finally time for gg home,was slpy at mrt,slp and waked for several times,then at dover bah,a guy came in wif his bro,i tink the guy poly derHx,his bro was talking so loud wif him and waked me up,i can't get into slp so listen to them talking =x,at je station..they went out the train,and i saw liling waked up too,chat wif her,and after awhile,saw him..tink he came in at je station if i am nt wrong,cos didn't saw him all the way frm simei to the station until je..was kinda happy to saw him bt nth special anw..lolx,one day saw 2 guys eh,one is i hav gd impression in,one is the person i lik..nt bad uh?Wat a lucky day..lol =x
