SinCe tHe dAy..hW dO i sMiLe whEn mY rEaL happiNeSs hAs gOnE...

Thursday, May 22, 2008

8:05 AM Y

Learn to cherish, before it's late

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Hm..slp at midnite 12am sumthing tis few days,waked at 5.30am,cannot tahan sia..lol..finally today can slp till 6.30am,hahas..take mrt wif jie,saw my zi bi di,lolx...actually didn't saw him bt he came forward and hit my head,lol. Then on the mrt,was so tired..at around eunos bah,then gt seats xD,awhile lata..jie went off at kembangan station as usual,me alone to simei,walking to sch again..wanna walk slowly as still early,was tinking K.C.J.E again,wondering hw gd it was if we were in same campus or rather same course too..and guess wat?I saw ling infront walking wif her ite friend,was feeling so sad..my friend was walking wif others while i am juz behind her walking alone,wanna call her to tell her i am behind,bt i didn't..i guess i will nt talk to her even if i walkig wif her,so let her walk wif her ite friend,i noe..she didn't noe i was behind her,cannot blame her..i didn't blame her oso,bt it was..the feeling nobody can noe unless u were me,i hav tried to told tis things when kcje meet,bt..to them,their ans is lik "no big deal",bt to me..it is,cos i scared they will treat their ite friend more impt than kcje,i scared they will let them overtake kcje,yea..tat's wat i am tinking,bt it will sound foolish when i say it out,so i am always reminding them kcje is still around at jan to apr,bt i am tired nw..i dun wan to remind anymore,cos i realised,if kcje can last long..it shld nt by my reminding,it sound lik i was forcing them to hold on tis friendship,i guess..it shld court on kcje itself,four of us hav the responsibility of holding on tis friendship,if we lose tis..means we aren't fit to name ourselves as kcje,if we last long..means tis is a worth friendship we hav ever had ;),since i hav type so many lerHx,shall nt talk abt sch things lerHx,anw..hav nth much to talk abt sch..