Thursday, September 25, 2008
11:48 AM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Ytd quan throw temper and say tat he wanna stay at my hse bt in the end he went home lerHx..cos hav to be in childcare today,hm..hav one drm last nite,abt dad..then waked up to do morning job lerHx,went to slp again,then anyhw drm abt some weird things,went to hav breakfast at mac in the morning,then went to do sumthing and went giant,back to home nw..lata gt one child will be coming,for mum to take care, hope he guai guai uh,abit scare he is those type of crying type,lata nobody play wif him then he wanna go home lerHx,lol...gg to one mth since dad left,argh...very sian,dad nt around,i am nt interested in working outside too,lazy lerHx..even i earn many money,oso can't treat them eat,cos without dad,even the lobster infront oso tasteless to us,no dad around = no fun around,i miss dad alot,i wan dad to be back alot,i wan my family to hav five person,dad...we love u,we miss u,we wan u,we need u,we dun wan to lose u,dad..take care of urself thr,rmb us dad,we will see u thr one day,decorate ur big hse nice nice uh...dad..my dear dad,we respect u and mum..without u and mum = without us in tis world,and becos of u,i can be born into tis world,thks for ur saving,cos u wan me to be born,so i am born in tis world,and u hav been working so hard for us to survive,for us to hav a warm family,thks for ur sacrifice,u hav done enough,i love tis family,i love u all.
Saturday, September 20, 2008
3:44 PM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Went to changi airport to send esther off to china tis morning around 8am,she went off at 12.15pm so we oso went off at around tat time,having headache,so tired..nw and i realise sumone scary appear in my life,feel so piss off,damn it..did i owe him/her or wat?-.- Why i seem to hav no freedom?Wa kao,i hav my own life to live,dunno wat friend mean then dun be friend wif me?Cos i treat every friend tis way,dun lik?Get off!Onli K.C.J.E r special okies?Damn..i am so useless,why i can't be independent totally?Damn ass..dun try to do anything funny to spoil my life,my friendship,or anything happen..i wun be kind to u,dun make tat day happen...i am nt as weak as u tink okies?=/Labels: Dad..whr r u?We miss u deeply
Sunday, September 14, 2008
12:48 PM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Went out wif uncles to hav supper ytd,thought will be gg arena to hav BK bt in the end went boon lay,either way hav dad and our memories,controlling myself at the car went it reach boon lay,once i look at the POSB atm nearby,my tears started to flow out,my gosh,dad often drive me to here and ask me help him put in the money inside the bank,and the first time dad drive me thr ask me help him put,i still argue wif him say here gt meh?Cos i didn't noe,then when i went forward to go and check then i see and noe here oso hav cash deposit machine..and frm thr onward,dad often drive me thr and sumtimes at st51 to help him do cash deposit,okie..then we went in and find seats,i start to tink and tink,and mum ask me whether wanna eat beancurd anot cos dad promise to buy many for me bt he didn't,i say dun wan cos i will tink of dad,she find out i tinking of dad,i guess sis crying too,bro asked,wat happen to both of u,and uncontrollable i start to cry out and uncles keep making fun to stop me crying,heart wasn't feeling gd,seriously...i wanna do sumthing make me feel better,if dad appear suddenly..i will ran toward and hug him tightly,believe mum,bro and sis will do tat too,dad..really too sudden lerHx,tinking of u really pass away is a unacceptable truth tat we dun wan bt hav to accept,i miss those days u send me home frm sch,u bring me to boon lay asked me help u do cash deposit and u sit in the car waiting for me,dad..nv will tat happen again,so pain,my heart..once tat tinking appear on my mind,can everything return?I nt suppose to be in tis world,cos u and mum giv birth to me on sudden,then why am i nt the one who replace ur death?Dad..i miss u alot..i wan u to be back,dad...whr r u?Hav u forgotten us?I noe i am selfish to hav tis tinking,bt i dun wish u to forget us,we still hav to be a family next life...
Monday, September 08, 2008
11:28 AM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Starting to get abit interested in my course bt since dad lefted..i begin to dislik it,to others i am saying i am nt interested,bt actually is i dun hav the heart to carry on anymore,it's easy to say "although ur dad lik tis bt u shld carry on,study hard and be success so u can show it to him,make him proud,he will noe it",bt do anyone noe,when u need to concentrate on sumthing,when u need to study,the things u need to use is ur brain,bt when u r sad,when u tink of sumthing,it is oso brain tat u r using,so hw can u do sumthing when u r tinking of another things?So hw to nt tink of another things when ur mind r all filled wif it,it's onli 2 wks,nt 2 months,nt 2 yrs,hw to get used to it so fast?Even nw,sumtimes..i still thought tat dad was still around,it was an ass drm..juz lik ytd,i went tiong bahru plaza wif sis.and while i was waiting for sis cos she went to do sumthing,i went to find aunt as aunt was oso thr,bt when uncle came to drive aunt,left me alone waiting for sis,when i was walking alone,shopping the shop,i thought it was 2 wks ago,when dad r still alive,and dad will drive mum,kor and quan over lata,and they will wait for me and we will hav dinner and went home and hav a gd rest and waiting for next day to start,bt when i saw wat i was wearing,when i start to waked up,i was forced to accept the fact tat all was memories,tat can nv be the same anymore,dad..we r still missing u,i really really wanna noe whr r u,wat's the life u r having nw,r u alright?Hw can we be tgt again,can u be mum husband again next life?Can u be our dad again next life?Can everything be the same again next life?Bt sumthing muz change..tat's our life,we muz be living better next life,we muz hav more money next life..we muz be happily tgt next life..dad,we will meet u next life!Nt onli,bt forever life,and each life will be better than next life!Dad..we respect u forever,we r so so lucky to hav u and mum to be our parents,both of u r respected and loved by us,3 of urs child!
Thursday, September 04, 2008
3:38 PM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Almost a week since dad has went heaven...it's still quite unacceptable for us sumtimes as everywhr we walk,thr will be his(dad) shadow around,today i went home early frm sch as while i was talking to mum on phone,she was sad,and i at sch oso dun hav the heart to concentrate,dunno why,i was listening using left ear bt it was out frm right ear,hard to concentrate nt i dun wan,i am nt interested in tis course as well,bt i will try uh,hav been talking to dad using 2 coins to get his ans,and dad without fail always reply me,bt i noe i very fan uh,so he oso tink i am fan liao =x,dunno the life dad is having thr,is freedom derHx or as grandma said,gt 2 guard is stopping him frm everything every nw and then..why till nw dad still haven let us drm of him?I wanna see hw dad was nw..hm...nw gt many ppl around us care for us,bt although they care for us,bt nobody love can replace family loves..my dad,mum,bro,sis always onli them,no one can replace,i love them...nt onli in tis life,we will always be a family,bt we will live better next life...
