SinCe tHe dAy..hW dO i sMiLe whEn mY rEaL happiNeSs hAs gOnE...

Sunday, September 14, 2008

12:48 PM Y

Learn to cherish, before it's late

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Went out wif uncles to hav supper ytd,thought will be gg arena to hav BK bt in the end went boon lay,either way hav dad and our memories,controlling myself at the car went it reach boon lay,once i look at the POSB atm nearby,my tears started to flow out,my gosh,dad often drive me to here and ask me help him put in the money inside the bank,and the first time dad drive me thr ask me help him put,i still argue wif him say here gt meh?Cos i didn't noe,then when i went forward to go and check then i see and noe here oso hav cash deposit machine..and frm thr onward,dad often drive me thr and sumtimes at st51 to help him do cash deposit,okie..then we went in and find seats,i start to tink and tink,and mum ask me whether wanna eat beancurd anot cos dad promise to buy many for me bt he didn't,i say dun wan cos i will tink of dad,she find out i tinking of dad,i guess sis crying too,bro asked,wat happen to both of u,and uncontrollable i start to cry out and uncles keep making fun to stop me crying,heart wasn't feeling gd,seriously...i wanna do sumthing make me feel better,if dad appear suddenly..i will ran toward and hug him tightly,believe mum,bro and sis will do tat too,dad..really too sudden lerHx,tinking of u really pass away is a unacceptable truth tat we dun wan bt hav to accept,i miss those days u send me home frm sch,u bring me to boon lay asked me help u do cash deposit and u sit in the car waiting for me,dad..nv will tat happen again,so pain,my heart..once tat tinking appear on my mind,can everything return?I nt suppose to be in tis world,cos u and mum giv birth to me on sudden,then why am i nt the one who replace ur death?Dad..i miss u alot..i wan u to be back,dad...whr r u?Hav u forgotten us?I noe i am selfish to hav tis tinking,bt i dun wish u to forget us,we still hav to be a family next life...