SinCe tHe dAy..hW dO i sMiLe whEn mY rEaL happiNeSs hAs gOnE...

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

6:57 PM Y

Learn to cherish, before it's late

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Thr is once,while dad is still alive..i am still having a very wonderful family,i believe..thr IS a miracle in tis world,no matter hw tough life is,when miracle appeared..surely nth is impossible,bt since dad left,in the hospital i rmb the doctor said tis :"the percentage of ur dad to recover is 0%,nw..it can onli depend on miracle to waked him up",at tat moment...i am tinking of gg home to fold many many paper cranes lik wat drama show showed cos at least thr's a hope,i told dad :"dad,if u waked up,i will fold many many crane for u",i nv tink much,bt..tat nite,we went home to slp and i ask mum :"shld i fold paper cranes?"Mum replies :"do u tink u fold,dad will waked up?" I tink back..and i didn't fold,i keep tinking all the processing,i hav a strong feeling dad wun waked up anymore,bt becos..we wanna try,at least thr is 0.01% of chance for dad,we didn't giv him up,if nt tat the doctor all mind is to take out my dad organs,i believe..we will wait till midnite for the second day even if the chance for dad to be awake is slim,saying all tis nw is meaningless,bt..i dunno why,suddenly wanna blog abt all tis,whenever i tink of the face dad was smiling,my eyes automatic fill up wif tears,and the sound of crying start to come out,i hate tat sound larHx,then my family will noe i am crying -.-,forget abt tis topic bah,today...meet wif kyna and nisha to go sch tgt,saw ling at mrt so went to find her,meet nisha at je and kyna at redhill,reach sch and d-com lesson is so suck?Damn boring,i dun understand,even if i understand nw,i will still forget..wat to do?My brain hav no spaces for all tis,then went to hav lunch wif friends and went for lifeskill lesson at 12pm,and dismiss at 12.30pm if i am nt wrong,juz to discuss abt our project and the processing,then take bus wif kyna and nisha to tanah merah take train to boonlay,exactly 1.50pm sumthing when i walking home,and saw many jwss students,miss those life,although "N" lvl,bt no stress,no troubles at all,gt kcje around,went back home stilll gt my happy family acc,bt tat life..impossible anymore.Maybe wat i gonna do nw,is to make life better,bt..hw to?

Everything happened too suddenly,
everything i once believe is all shatter,
if thr's a choice for me to make..
i will choose to hav a happy family then a rich family,
i dun mind we r poor when we r living happily,
i dun wan we r rich bt we can't be tgt as one family.