SinCe tHe dAy..hW dO i sMiLe whEn mY rEaL happiNeSs hAs gOnE...

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

9:53 PM Y

Learn to cherish, before it's late

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Juz finish watching vcd,nice show..touching,bt dun exist in real world...hahas xD. Went to sch today as usual,doing revision,and one thing i feel weird,tat is no matter hw much i study i juz can't concentrate and those things dun get inside my mind,hw am i gonna pass for my coming exams?And i dun hav any intention to study at all,maybe at sch while all my friends were studying,at least i can concentrate alittle bit,bt while at home,my mind was reminding me to take out bks to study,bt i am lazy to do so,am i gone for it?-.- haix,suddenly when was having lunch at cafe1 wif kyna they all today,i tink of sumthings,i feel tat my life is lik properly planned before i was born into tis world,especially all things tat happened in tis yr,i nt even can't get in the same sch wif my sis,even the onli sis who same sch wif me,i can't be in same class wif her,and after everything,i decided to change my class, bt i ended alone..i feel so...unfair,why am i the one who was lonely,and i done all stupid things to make me feel better,nt crying anymore,and time passes,i was used to it..bt at tis time,my dad suddenly passed away,and tat make me feel more and more hate my life,bt..after dad passed away,tis time..suddenly,my classmates started to talk to me,and i started to get along wif them,nw..we can be consider as friends..bt..another side of my world was gone,i wan them back,bt they can no longer be back,feeling wun be the same anymore...why?Why can't i hav all these at the same time?Why am i losing everything one by one?One sentence was written tis way.."sumthing is end wif a new start",bt i was tinking..why muz things end to hav a new start?Then why muz hav all tis at the beginning,we will lose it anyway?These things appear to make us feel pain one day,it's juz a pass-by in our life,so why...life happened to be tis way,and nw i hav a ques..is anybody really feel happy in ur whole life in tis world without any dejected times?Last time,i thought human was born to tis world to enjoy,bt..my conclusion change,nw..to me,human r born to tis world to suffer...generation change,human change,world change,everything change accept for "change".Shall end here,readers if feel too bored reading tis then i dun mind can get off my blog ;)