SinCe tHe dAy..hW dO i sMiLe whEn mY rEaL happiNeSs hAs gOnE...

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

11:40 PM Y

Learn to cherish, before it's late

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Today is 31 Dec 2008,the very last day of 2008,last yr tis day,tis hr,tis min,tis sec..dad,mum,bro,sis and me was in dad taxi car,and we asked dad to bring us see firework,tat day,is the very first time..five of us,onli us,one family..watch firework tgt,and i had nv nv tink of tat it is oso the very last time,rmb tat time,dad still scolded by a police,and even hav some arguement,becos of us..we wan to watch firework,actually..mum said dun wan watch lerHx,bt dad insist and in the end we still get to watch it,behind the trees,and we watch the firework,so nice..so beautiful,me and sis was shouting welcoming 2008 and taking videos,dad,bro and mum was watching the firework and praising it,saying it was nice.Yea..indeed,bt becos we watch it tgt,imagine tis yr,no more one family,even hundreds,thousands of firework infront of us,i am sure..it's still nth,tat's why when uncle called and ask mum to go out,mum rejected,she say she was afraid seeing those firework wun make her happy,instead..onli make her cry.I am nw tinking and hating myself why i onli take those firework,and i nv take the expression of dad,mum,bro,sis and myself tat time?If i had,nw i could watch it,and will nv forget the scene of tat nite,we miss u dad...u r gone and it's juz lik a part of our world was gone,so wat it's 2009 nw?Even 2010,2011,2012 and the rest of the yr,to us...we already dun hav reunion lerHx,hw to celebrate?Nw..everyone was happily celebrating and welcoming tis coming 2009,cos their life still the same,bt why..juz 1 yr onli,it's diff nw,last yr..tis yr,seems to lik very short period,bt a very big diff to our family.

Sometimes,life is lik a puzzle..it's very complicated,it test ur patience,it makes u wanna giv up,bt if u giv up,u will ended up wif nth,no results..bt if u sort it out..continue to find a way,u will slowly feel tat u are almost complete,and at the end of the day..u will get a nice puzzle u fixed ur own...and u will feel tat wat u hav done is worth.Everything is nt wasted.

Friday, December 26, 2008

10:28 PM Y

Learn to cherish, before it's late

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Changed new blogskin!LOL..hw was it?=x Hm..got my exam result,bt wasn't a gd grade,juz acceptable,shld i buck up or giv up?I am nt interested in tis course uh-.-,bt no use saying tis cos dun lik still study for 1 yr lerHx,so fast..1 yr lerHx,lol...and tis 1 yr really many things happen,and i almost breakdown,bt i guess everything is over nw,maybe tat's hw fate make a person strong bah..bt tat's really cruel,argh..still haven gt a job..dun need work lerHx bah,left a few wks onli =/,sian..sch gotta re-open,tiring larHx...nth much to blog lerHx,take care.

Labels: Miss u dad =)

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

2:12 PM Y

Learn to cherish, before it's late

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Juz did a gd job xD,the chair we bought for mum come lerHx,hahas..guess hw funny it is,we called the person and ask when it will be deliver over,and the person said one hr lata,then when the chair haven came,mum and us was in the living rm and mum friend came find mum chit chat,then we noe the chair will be coming soon,suddenly mum gg to store rm to take sumthing and so coincidence the person came,we was in the mess and push mum inside the store rm then dun let her come out until we r done wif everything,then mum came out went kitchen to wash her hand without noticing the chair yet as she thought we bought cake or sumthing,then she saw the chair,hahas..then i ask her she say she lik it lots,she feel surprise too ;),dad..dun worry,we will represent u let mum hav a happy b'dae.Bro treating us dinner tonite,to celebrate mum b'dae,will be continue if more things to post...

look hw happy mum is prove tat we didn't choose wrong present xP

continue~

Dinner at tong le restaurant,and xiao jiu mu bought cake for mum too,taken many photos so i shall nt say much,posted the photos and u will noe wat's gg on xD...enjoy ;)

Labels: Dad..i noe u r all the way wif us..celebrating mum b'dae.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

2:22 AM Y

Learn to cherish, before it's late

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Lol..it's so late nw,so windy outside and i am so tired xD,bt still choose to blog cos lata tomoro will lazy to do so.Went to airport to fetch 1st uncle they all,they r back frm beijing,lol..went to airport at 8pm sumthing wif xiao jiu,e jiu,mum,bro and jiong hao cousin,went to eat first..after tat we went to walk walk at airport,then found tat their plane will be delay,lol..we take skytrain frm terminal 3 to terminal 2 then walk walk thr lerHx take back to terminal 3 again..took some picts,some took frm my mum phone derHx will be upload tomoro bah,cos nw lazy take her phone plug,then wait and wait till exactly 12am then uncle they all came out,so tired xD,went to uncle hse first,reach thr is abt 1am and then stay thr till 1.30am and back home..headche nw,juz nw almost vomit sia-.-,cos i can't sit car for too long (depends on which driver =x),hahas..so i tink tat will be all bah,enjoy =)

all picts was uploaded,enjoy..

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

7:22 PM Y

Learn to cherish, before it's late

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Morning go st91 wif mum,then sis went to work at her sch again..bro went to see doctor as he having pain on his cheek,then back frm st91,surf net awhile and meeting kyna at 11.30am,bro was back home,he acc mum to PM and when they was back,i am still at home,hahas..cos i meeting wif kyna at 12pm sumthing lerHx,meet her lerHx,we went jp 1 and we gg to watch movie bt dunno wat movie shld we watch,so we anyhw choose one movie..Twilight,tat's the movie we will be watching at 4.15pm,then we go to jp 2 to find for job first as time still early...and hope will receive calls frm them,lol..then kyna go wash photos at jp 1,and we back to jp 2 again to hav dessert,and back to jp 1 go get the photos and finally went to watch the movie,and tis show was nice ;),the guy main character ..so attractive =x,a nice show to watch..it started at 4.30pm and ended at 6.30pm,so is a 2hr show,bt i guess thr will be part 2 cos i can't see thr is any ending,hahas...seriously,till nw still tinking of the guy,hope if thr is really part 2,i will get to watch it xP,after the show..me and kyna keep talking abt the guy,sound abit desperate =X,LOL...then kyna went take train and i take bus home,quite long since i last go out wif friend and watch movie,today...quite a fun day to me..enjoy ;)

Monday, December 15, 2008

3:49 PM Y

Learn to cherish, before it's late

♥ You'll never know the real me.

I hav nth to blog abt,and suddenly..juz feel lik blogging abt wat happen tat midnite,26/8..everything remain the same before 12:45am if i am nt wrong..and tis things nv crossed my mind at all,cos i was still happily chatting wif dad at abt 8pm - 9pm at 25/8,he jk wif me,and i was lying on the bed wif mum and dad was juz sitting thr,he even take the dumbbell tat belongs to bro to exercise his hand,his hand hav pain for a very long time,since he started to drive midnite taxi last time,bt...for our sake,he still need to force himself to work to let us hav a stable financial every mth,and a person lik him,why will tis thing happen to him?Midnite,a loud sound waked mum and mum voice waked me and sis,bro was still at his police academy serving ns,when i waked up,and switch on the light,dad was lying on the floor wif a terrible expression,he struggling,trying to get up bt he couldn't,and we realise half of his body cannot even move,me and mum then helped him to sit up,he sit on the floor,and his body lean on the bed,dad wanna speak sumthing,bt he couldn't talk,wat he can speak is onli "en en en",i started to feel faint,the feeling i hav nv had before,sitting on the bed,dunno wat to do,sis get a cup of water for dad,dad trying to drink bt he couldn't,water came out,sis suggest to called uncle(mum side),and uncle ask us to call ambulance and while waiting,dad struggling to stand up,he pull the corner of the wall trying to get up,i went toward and say tis to him "dad,ambulance coming,u dun force urself anymore,dun make us worry",and dad looked at me,i feel so pain..i was tinking to get a piece of paper and pen to let dad write wat he wanna say,bt i didn't,i was so regret why i didn't,if i did..maybe dad could write down wat he wanna say,bt..i didn't,i am so regret nw,i nv tink tat tis will happen,at tat moment i juz thought tat after ambulance come,send to hospital and dad will be cured,bt..until i heard the doctor say:"u all hav to be prepared",without a sec,mum..sis..and me,burst out of tears,it was at midnite,hw i wish i was drming,bt until today..wat i can do other than accept the fact,dad..we love u,we miss u,u r the most noble dad in our heart,dun forget us,we be family forever!!!!!

Labels: Sometimes..i wondering if tis nv happen..wat are we doing tgt nw?Shld be still a happy family bah?

Saturday, December 13, 2008

6:19 PM Y

Learn to cherish, before it's late

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Morning went st91 again-.-,tis wk went thr alots of time,lol..then hav breakfast at thr wif mum,bro and sis,after tat sis go rebond her hair,and mum,bro and me went home first..and then we tidy up the whole rm,cleaning and throwing rubbish and wa lau,so tiring..then bath and xiao jiu mu came,wif her sis frm malaysia..to visit us,and then mum started to chit-chat wif them,so i help bro continue cleaning even when i already bath-.-",hahas..then after xiao jiu mu they all went home,mum say hungry..so we called sis and ask her ready lerHx anot,she said almost and we went jp to meet her,she came lerHx..abt 2pm bah,we walking one big round dunno wat to eat,and i feel headache,then frustrated...and finally we decide to go old jp to hav lunch at the foodcourt,simple xD,then many ppl thr,hav to waited for seats..and found seats lerHx we eat and after tat went shop shop,bro buy shirts for new yr..then went old jp and buy jeans,then mum bought polo tee for bro,sis and me..each person one,fair enough xP. And when we gg to went off,saw ella shop outside new jp gt storewide,then went in..and mum buy one shirt for me and herself,bro buy one shirt for me and two shirts for sis,thks to mum and bro..hahas,and we went home after tat..buy some drinks home too,and reach home is 5,30pm,tat's all..miss u dad!

Thursday, December 11, 2008

1:35 PM Y

Learn to cherish, before it's late

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Actually hav no intention to blog today bt juz rmb sumthing.I hav a drm last nite,a wonderful drm tat i will nv forget,i loved tat drm..and hw i wish it could be real...bt tat can no longer be bah,cos dad is missing..haix..in the drm,one happy family..when i waked up,back to the cruel reality again-.-.Went to st91 wif mum and auntie tis morning again,hav breakfast thr,after tat back home..eat an ice-cream and go PM and buy somemore ice-cream,my gosh..i am gaining weight -.=,then back home and then slp..waked up,bro and his colleague come our hse to check abt the financial things,then mum waked me up,i tired tired sit thr see them do everything lo,then after tat they check finish then went back,left mum,me and the little devil yang,then eat lunch,mum cook...and nw surfing net,so boring..if dad still around,i am sure tis hr me and mum shld be outside wif him having lunch,cos he will call back home and ask us out,hw i miss those days..haix,bt nw i can onli talk to a piece of wood and dunno really dad is thr anot...dad..wat r u doing thr at tis hr nw?We miss u deeply!("v")

Labels: I will nv forget the reason tat let my family become today tis way...

Monday, December 08, 2008

11:59 PM Y

Learn to cherish, before it's late

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Shall blog sumthing abt tis few days..bought a new phone on sat,went to westmall wif mum,bro,sis and quan..my gosh..still buying the phone same as bro and sis,we wanna buy diff frm each others derHx bt tis is the onli phone we see lerHx then satisfy-.-,and my num will be change frm jan onwards..hm..then we go to causeway point to do sumthing,and so coincidence tat we meet quan mum and sis thr..then walk tgt,and went home abt evening forget wat time lerHx..and sun didn't went anywhr,today wanna rest at home bt mum and bro went out wif uncle and awhile lata mum call and say uncle wanna bring us buy new yr shirt then firstly sis and me dun wan bt mum insist so we went,went to dunno whr and the shop is metro,and see none of it we lik,so went to bugis junction,then finally buy one and dunno went to whr,the skirt thr nice,then me and sis keep trying..lol,and bro oso buy shirt too...and then went home at 5pm plus,uncle call at 6pm sumthing and ask us to go out for dinner,and nw was back home,tired xD. Oh yah,it's quan birthday today,happy birthday to my cute quan quan didi.

Here the long survey requested by dennis.

1. What have you been doing recently?

-slacking at home or go out wif mum.

2. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?

-nope unless low batt.

3. What happened at 10am today?

-gg out wif mum,bro,,sis,uncle and aunt.

4. When did you last cry?
-nt long ago bah.

5. Believe in fate/destiny?

-yea..it's freaking scary.

6. What do you want in your life now?

-a happy family.

7. Do you carry a umbrella when it rains or just put up ur hood?
-erm..depends.

8. Whats your favourite thing to have on ur bed?
-blanket,pillow and bolster.

9. What bottoms are you wearing now?

-short jean.

10. Whats the nicest thing in your inbox?

-nth.

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?

-no.

12. Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
-nope.

13. What was the last movie you caught?

-forget lerHx.

14. What are you proud of?

-having them as my family.

15. What does your oldest text msg in your inbox says?

-a chain msg.

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
-dui wang by jimmy lin

17. Do you have any nicknames?

-yea.

18. What does your last text msg says?
-i nedd tell... youhhx sumthiinn...

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
-forget lerHx...

20. Are you currently happy?

-nt at all.

21. Who gives you the best advice?
-dunno?

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from can?
-nt sure.

23. Who did you talk on the phone last night?
-dunno.

24. Is something bugging you now?
-no bah?

25. What/who was the last person to make you laugh?
-bro,his driving skill xD

26. Do you wear toe socks?

-dunno.

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
-my cousin.

28. Have you ever had your heart broken?
-ya,long ago.

29. What annoys you most in a person?
-ppl doing thing tat annoys me..

30. Do you have a crush on someone?

-no.

31. Have you ever done cocaine?

-nope-.-

32. What is the colour of your room?
-blue.

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion bucks?
-kill lerHx then i am the one who kana-.-

34. Do you believe in the saying, talk is cheap?

-nt really.

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
-myself.

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
-erm..quan didi bah?

37. Did you see the last person you kissed recently?

-nope...

38. Do you have a life?

-yea,bt nt exciting..

39. Have you ever thought someone died, when they didnt?
-no.

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
-no reason,juz lik the song.

41. Who was the last person you saw in yr dreams?

-nt sure,forget lerHx..

42. Last time you smiled?

-nt long ago.

43. Have you changed this year?

-i guess yes..

44. What are you listening to right now?

-canon.

45. Are you talking to someone while doing this?

-no.

46. Do you walk with your eyes closed or open?

-open =.="

47. Is there a quote you live by?

-yah.

48. Do you want someone you can never have?
-depends.

49. Have you ever played an instrument?

-yea..

50. What was the worst idea you had this week?

-go find dad and see hw he was,then wun get cheated by those con.

51. What were you doing last night at 11pm?

-abt to slp bt i guess haven..

52. Are you happy with your love life now?

-i hav no love life,hw to say happy or not?

53. What song best describes your love life?

-dunno..yi zhi hen an jing bah?

54. Does the person know you like him/her?
-yah..bt nw no more lik him..

55. Who always makes you laugh?
-last time dad often make us laugh,bt nw he no longer thr for us lerHx.

56. Do you speak other languages other than english?
-yes.

57. Favourite websites?
-none.

58. Whats your middle name?
-dunno.

60. What do you think you are like?
-a disobedient one

61. Who will you choose to die with?
-my family,without them..who can i live wif?

62. Where have you been today?

-bugis.

63. What game do you play often?
-none.

64. Who are you missing now?

-my dad.

65. If you had to choose between your friend or your lover which will you choose?

-for nw is friend,cos i still hav no lover so i dunno..xD

66. What are you doing right now?

-doing tis survey.

67. Which primary school are you from?

-jwps.

68. Name 3 colours that you like?

-babyblue

-light pink

-light purple

69. What emotion do you like to show?

- =X

70. What is your life to you ?
- boring.

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

8:04 PM Y

Learn to cherish, before it's late

♥ You'll never know the real me.

One of my final yr exam is done and tomoro is the last one,tues and wed was staying at home cos no sch,tomoro is my last exam and oso dad 100th day,days passes quite fast..lol,and as wanna buy some flowers for putting at the place dad was put at so do some research for flowers,and mum bought red roses,bro choose blue morning glory,sis choose pink roses and i choose white roses,and i onli found out the significance for red,pink and white roses,morning glory is still a mazes to me,and i oso search others flower lik pink carnation flowers=proud of someone,forget-me-not flowers=dun forget me and statice=u miss someone,i search it frm nets so nt sure was it the real meaning anot...tomoro is my exam bt i didn't study at all xD. Oh ya,and i make a heart shape cake and gg to offer to dad tomoro,hope he really gt eat,and hope the taste was nice,cos i see lik quite hard leh,dunno nice anot,tomoro will noe..hahas -.+

Enjoy pict posted ;)