SinCe tHe dAy..hW dO i sMiLe whEn mY rEaL happiNeSs hAs gOnE...

Saturday, April 11, 2009

12:55 AM Y

Learn to cherish, before it's late

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Today is my b'dae lerHx,nw is 12.29am,dunno wat could be happening tomoro,bt i onli noe i lying on the bed juz feel lik to blogging,cos i was tinking of last yr,my b'dae celebration,and comparing to tis yr,it's really feel terrible,last yr...having b'dae party,sis and my b'dae party on the same day,and as bro was 21 yrs old so dad and mum said wan to let bro hav another party on his b'dae itself,though i look fine bt dad and mum noe in the bottom of my heart,i still will feel abit nt happy,so on my b'dae tat day,they buy another cake for me,a tiramisu cake bought at gek poh,i didn't noe tat was dad last time celebrate my b'dae for me,we took photo,they sing b'dae song for me,rmb the cake hav chocolate,and i ask can eat tat chocolate anot,if i nv rmb wrong,dad said...tis is ur b'dae cake,the chocolate u eat,then i eat the chocolate and dad sit infront of me watching tv,hw happy was it,i can still rmb,bt i can't feel anymore,i rather no party,no surprise or anything,juz a cake wif my family around celebrating for me,i miss u dad...i really do,do u noe hw many times i hav been tinking during those vacation or holiday tat if u were around,we will lik before gg out tgt and u bring us to shopping then we happily go home,maybe sometime will hav some quarrel tat make u and mum angry bt i really wanna say i am sorry,though compare to bro and sis i follow u and mum go out most often bt i dun feel enough,if u could be so lucky lik those ppl i read in the newspaper,back to live after being announce dead,hw happy will it be,after reading the newspaper,i keep on tinking,if we hav wait longer,will u back to live?Bt nt we dun wan to wait,is the doctor in NUH already wan to take out ur organs,they keep washing the organs in ur body,do u noe..seeing u lying on the bed bleeding here and thr and being poke by needles on ur neck,ur hand and so...we hav no choice bt to let u rest in peace,we giv up the pit of hope,and tat was a fake hope NUH doctor gave us..today,i juz wan to hear a b'dae song frm my dad,mum,bro and sis..once again.Lik the past..nv change.