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Wednesday, January 26, 2011

9:39 PM Y

Learn to cherish, before it's late

♥ You'll never know the real me.

Today is a bad bad day,cos thr's a bad bad news regarding my job.The guy hav been teaching me all stuffs,hav been my helping hand,decided to resign at the 31st of jan due to some of his family prob,and after tat..i will be working alone,i am shock after i overheard tis news,and i actually wanted to ask the guy to reconfirm it bt before i ask him,the supervisor already told me instead,my mood was lik totally 180 degree changed,is it true?Omgosh...wif him around i already work till lik no time to rest,without him around,hw am i gg to carry on for tis 2 mths plus?Thr's still alots of stuff which i am still nt sure,unknown,haven noe yet..hw am i gg to manage it when he leave sia?Lunch time,i am texting wif wifey,jie and calling mum,i told them i am sad,wifey called me,asked me wat happened,and i wan to let them noe wat happen bt out of sudden,i feel the word stuck,if i start to talk,i would juz cry out,so..i told wifey i text her abt wat happen,and..contract really isn't sumthing to play wif,i dunno wat's wrong wif it,i hav been very careful bt i still met tis incident by finding tis job.After lunch,back to working area..i asked the guy why is he quitting,and thr he told me as wat i hav mention above,then he asked me "why",i told him "i will be very lonely,and thr's still lots of stuff i dunno",while saying tis sentences...my tears start to drop,the more i am trying to control,the more tears i drop,at the point of time..i really hate myself for being so weak.I onli noe,i am scare,really scare...the feeling which i had,nt the first time,bt really dun wanna to hav it again.

P.S Everything i hav written,regarding is at my blog,fb or etc.,as long as it's my matter,pls keep it private and confidential,i welcome u to view it,noe it bt nt spread it.