Saturday, March 26, 2011
6:53 PM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
I..become more and more moody each and everyday,wat's the reason..forget abt it.Haix..ytd,mum when for an minor op,tis minor op is to remove sumthing tat if nv found out early or if nv take gd care,will become dangerous.And though it's fine nw,hope it's really fine.I took leave ytd to accompany mum.And becos of ytd leave,i worked OT on thurs to finish tat 74 pieces of GR.Bt lucky it was a small load,nt large lik the previous one,do until i feel lik quitting,LOL.Lik crazy,sis and me took alots of photos inside the hospital rm,until mum went for op,we went to buy tau sar piah(loong fatt) to pray dad tomoro at cck,cos it was "qing ming jie",then we went back,mum was out,then xiao jiu and dajiu came to visit mum,and went off after 1 hr plus lata,while mum resting,sis and me went velocity to bring bro to visit mum as he dunno hw to walk frm the mrt station to the place.And 3 of us was beside mum,accompanying her.Then...again,i started to tink,hw unfilial i was few yrs ago when dad found out sumwhr near his kidney hav those stone,hav to go for an minor op to take out,bt...i forget why i wasn't by his side,accompanying him lik hw i accompany mum nw.We went to visit dad after his op,before tat..he was all alone,by himself..hw lonely it was,dad...why did u leave so early,thr's so much i wan to do for u,thr's so much we need to repay u,thr's so much we still need u.We love u dad,we miss u.
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
10:42 PM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
My mood has been up and down.Wat's the main reason,i dunno.It could be u,it could be him,it could her,it could be anything.I thought thr was a chance to work wif my friend tgt in the same co.,bt too bad,it doesn't suit her,she dun wan the work,the boss oso dun wan her,and yah..fair enough.Juz quite disappointed.Bt..no fate,wat else can i do.I am stress...i feel the stress coming towards my way,the date to my contract end is nearby,shld i or shld i nt continue?Do the co. wan me to stay?Will i be convert to perm or will they wan me to sign another contract,hw much pay,wat benefits will i get?Wow...hard decision,bt..job is nt easy to find.Serious.I hav a doubt.A him in my mind nw,hav i giv up the 8 yrs one?I dun wan tis him to take away my another 8 yrs..so i really dun wan to let myself fall in tis trap.I am scare too.He's nt talking to me,alrite..continue tis way,let's nt talk...pls do nt talk to me until i hav no more feeling for u.I dun wan to create another illusion,I dun wan to let myself hav any other reason to say u actually hav feeling for me too.Bt...it came out juz my misperception.Tat feeling nt gd.Baddddd.Am i normal?I mean my health.I am always tired,big maternal aunt came find me twice a mth,and previously thr was a free testing of cholesterol,result came out i actually hav "high" cholesterol too.LOL.H-E-A-L-T-H-Y.
Monday, March 07, 2011
7:39 PM Y
Learn to cherish, before it's late
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Had a chat wif boss today,cos it was lunch time and i didn't went,lol...then talk and talk,i am still searching for my future,still in the maze of my life,still dunno wat i wan,my boss told me,even at his age nw,he oso dunno wat he really wan,bt yea..he juz work lo..cos he is working the job tat he study for the course.It was nice to noe hw ppl deal wif their life,cos..frm thr,u can use to do some reference.Alots of stuff tat i actually noe it even if nobody told me,bt...it's juz the prob of settling,lik..eg.i noe i hav to go 20 storey in order to success,bt...thr is no lift,no stairs...hw i go?I hav to find a way,and i noe the way is either i find a ladder or i get a hotair balloon or etc etc..bt...i dunno which way i use is better,if i use a ladder,maybe i haven reach 20 storey i already faint,if hotair balloon,maybe i couldn't reach the destination i wan.So...tat is why i really dunno wat i wan.Unless..thr is sumthing which really giv me the motivation towards it.Zhen me ban?WHEN WILL I FIND TIS "SUMTHING"?LOL..my boss say,why so many ppl in the world,he hired some weirdo lik me -.-.
