SinCe tHe dAy..hW dO i sMiLe whEn mY rEaL happiNeSs hAs gOnE...

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

10:42 PM Y

Learn to cherish, before it's late

♥ You'll never know the real me.

My mood has been up and down.Wat's the main reason,i dunno.It could be u,it could be him,it could her,it could be anything.I thought thr was a chance to work wif my friend tgt in the same co.,bt too bad,it doesn't suit her,she dun wan the work,the boss oso dun wan her,and yah..fair enough.Juz quite disappointed.Bt..no fate,wat else can i do.I am stress...i feel the stress coming towards my way,the date to my contract end is nearby,shld i or shld i nt continue?Do the co. wan me to stay?Will i be convert to perm or will they wan me to sign another contract,hw much pay,wat benefits will i get?Wow...hard decision,bt..job is nt easy to find.Serious.I hav a doubt.A him in my mind nw,hav i giv up the 8 yrs one?I dun wan tis him to take away my another 8 yrs..so i really dun wan to let myself fall in tis trap.I am scare too.He's nt talking to me,alrite..continue tis way,let's nt talk...pls do nt talk to me until i hav no more feeling for u.I dun wan to create another illusion,I dun wan to let myself hav any other reason to say u actually hav feeling for me too.Bt...it came out juz my misperception.Tat feeling nt gd.Baddddd.Am i normal?I mean my health.I am always tired,big maternal aunt came find me twice a mth,and previously thr was a free testing of cholesterol,result came out i actually hav "high" cholesterol too.LOL.H-E-A-L-T-H-Y.